yeah as the title suggests, im kinda feeling ignored and such, which makes me feel lonely, it kinda reminds me of the days when i was still a lil kid, ppl ignore me coz im taiwanese or asian for those who cant differentiate. so yeah lately ppl have been ignoring me, and the feeling of a black hole swallowing me is returning, wonder if i'll lose everyone i know once again, feeling alone isnt all that great either. its not like i try to get ppls attention and all that, but sometimes i would appreciate it if ppl actually took the time to talk to me. tho most just judge me by my skin color and never took the time to talk and get to know me. most ppl would be like "oh he's asian, he probably owns a china shop and cant speak proper english' well fuck you then!!! not all asians own a china shop and not all asians are from china, and for your information i can speak proper english and i probably scored a higher grade than you did. sometimes these ppl really piss me off with their stereotypes >_>

and yeah being ignored by strangers isnt that bad when ur being ignored by your friends even tho you have no idea what you did wrong even tho you try your best to find out what happened and such. sometimes i dont know why i bother, maybe because the person i talked and knew before had something that makes me want to stay with them. tho i know most of them dont even appreciate my friendship.

sigh well thats how my life's been. hmmm kinda sad if you look at it.

hmmm dont know why this song, maybe coz thats how i feel atm i guess :/