you know i always find it sad and yet annoying that whenever i want to talk to a specific person they're either too busy, have too much on their minds, too busy talking to someone else that they rather talk to and such or that they're so busy that they have the time to be on and yet not the time to talk. makes me so frustrated >_>
but i guess thats how it is, its not like im searching for someone to talk to me all the time and asking for attention, but oh well nothing i can do about that. makes me wana regress back to being a lone wolf and keeping things to myself, truly no one understands me, but no one takes the time to know me properly, always disliked being alone, tho im use to ppl judging me b4 they get to know me. even if i do have someone to talk to, i doubt that they'd have the time to listen to me, and even if they do, their minds arent there most likely just talking to other ppl and such. hmmm wonder if this is the first sign of thinking suicidal thoughts?? would keeping things in result to suicidal actions?? :/ hmmm duno what to do tbh oh well guess i'll just tough it out and see how things go :/