my self

I never imagined what my life could be. because now I'm drowning in sorrow a sorrow no one else can see. in my life theres so much misery, so much pain even though I try to run from it, always come back and chase me. Its all like a curse that never can be broken. some chains are holding me down crossing my heart, life and paths. None can save me Because I'm already saved, saved for worse but for better in the final day, the day death comes tome and calls me out.

Then Ill finally be awaken and my sorrow will end since I'm already dead but alive, a walking corpse with a mind of its own. I find myself walking in the streets the night its so cold, but it also embraces me, it also comforts my soul. every day I feel like breaking up, like everyone is taking my soul. never thought I would find my self out in the cold, in the comforting night doing everything that is prohibited drowning, choking and hurting my self since I don't want to hurt no one else. all I ask is forgiveness since I did hurt some people in my path before. I need for them to hut me back to take their vengeance to help me feel something even if its pain but don't hut my soul. I need to be destroyed before I cause more pain and sorrow

Goth castle

sorrow and desire
makes a great empire
the dancing wind
is the purity of it.

theres a chamber
and a torture chamber
the chains are so tight
there crossing my heart.

I can barley breath
I could never eat
all an illusion
why wont they set me free.

I'm a inside a castle
look for a self-portrait
then look for a chamber
its very important.

Glaced wind
odor of the dead
if you dig me up
you'll find it.