A huge thanks to those who responded to my emotional rant yesterday.

I am pleased to tell you that today has been completely different. I'm chalking up a lot of yesterday's despair to the fact that I was utterly exhausted. Today has been a different story. I feel refreshed, my self esteem has returned, and I um up and running.

In regards to what I'm doing with your guys' advice, well, I've decided a couple things. First off, I'm not going to back down as his friend. Although we haven't been talking much, I am, for the most part, content with where we stand. It's only in these small moments that my psyche breaks. And as long as he doesn't start fully mistreating me as a human, I'm going to assume he's fine with our friendship, too. Second off, I'm not going to confront him about anything. You guys are right - communication is key, and it's because of the current lack of communication that I just don't feel comfortable shoving such a huge, deep question on him so suddenly. I'm simply going to ride it out. I know of a few reasons why he may be acting this way, and even though it may take a while, I'm going to wait until they resolve themselves and see what happens from there.

Once again, thanks for all the comments! You guys are a huge reason why I've been so upbeat today. You guys are great. Thank you.