I fainted earlier today... I was tired because i spend the whole night awake thinking..... Putting the pieces together to form the image... what I mean is I still don't understand what in the world is going on... Even though I look like i got it under control and I look like i can lead the way I really don't!!!

Of course... Nicola came busting in to the room lecturing me about how I should sleep better and eat better like he's my mother.... It's a good chance though!! I can get him to explain to me what is going on so far... I closed the door on us and asked him to explain to me... What happened so far... and pleaded him to tell me.. I am so confused I can't put it together!