Self Harm

Hi guys.
I am a self harmer.
Self harm is an addiction and Im no exception, I am addicted. I've tried 2 before to stop both ending in failure:( the longest i have managed is 6 months. I've decided to give it another go, i don't want this life anymore. I first started after my son died in order to deal with the intense emotional pain i was experiencing at the and also as a way to help deal with my constant anxiety attacks. Nobody know that i had a problem with self harm until now. Both times i tried to stop i tried to do it alone with no support but this time i have a support person and hopefully this will give me the boost i need when Im really struggling.
Im telling u guys this in order to raise awarness about self harm and that its not something to be ashamed of and that other self harmers out there are not alone in there struggle. I was gonna post some pics of my injuries but Im not sure if that will keep the post under pg 13 since there is a little bit of blood in them.
Unfortunately i did cut myself just recently and i had a bit of a brush with death due to blood lose. Which is why Im trying again. You see i don't actually want to die cutting started as a coping method and soon became an addiction. In time when my emotions are extremely intense ie during an anxiety attack I can't feel pain i just grab a razor and start slashing with very little self control and often times i cut too much and too deep and i loose alot of blood. I lost alot of blood the last time i cut, i passed out on the floor for alittle while and awoke in a puddle of my own blood. Luckly when i came to i was able to bandage myself and stop the bleeding, but i felt very light headed and very weak for a long time after:(
So today marks day 1 without self harm.

Father

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