Life on Words

I couldn't post yesterday. I was way too tired. I fell up the stairs trying to get to bed, I was so tired. But now I'm not so tired. So I'll post. Not that there's much to say.

I got the first couple pages of the Scheherazade story done, up to the first description of the King. I'm probably going to go work on it after I'm done here.

I'm having a miniature crisis again over what I'm going to do with my life. I don't know what I want to be, and part of the problem is that there are a lot of things I'm interested in. There's the FBI, which is one of my major goals, because being a Special Agent is a way I can protect people. Plus, the job description looks like something I would like. I can get rather vindictive at times, although I hardly act on it. And I like to protect people. Then there's becoming a biological research scientist, because I like biology. No, I love biology. And then there's becoming a criminal psychologist, because I love analyzing, especially analyzing people, and psychology fascinates me. I want to learn about people and about life. I want to discover all the secrets to the human mind, or at least as many as I can. Plus, people tell me i should be a teacher or the President of the United States. I'm actually considering both. I would like to be a teacher, but at a higher level, like professor in a college. Only, I don't like politics very much. But if I could, I would be the President. I have a lot of theories about the world and its problems...

Then there's the fact that I want to study music in Japan for a few years, like four. My mother, although I've said it to her several times, just recently realized that when I said four years, I meant four years, and not two. She doesn't want me to stay away that long, and tells me I'm being selfish by leaving my family. She thinks I want to go away because I'm running away from my family, but really, it's because I want to go somewhere where I can experience something new everyday. She doesn't understand the drive I feel to know things, and to experience new things. I can't stay in a place where I can predict what's going to happen days before it does. Also, I really like the Japanese culture, almost better than American, and would love to experience it firsthand. But I can't change her mind or how she wants to see things, because I've tried, and it doesn't work.

Anyway, right now I'm leaning towards criminal psychology, because I could get my degrees, and then move to Japan, maybe get a psychology job there, if not, a job teaching English. And then I study my music,come back stateside, and that's when I'll apply for a job...somewhere.

Sketchy, I know. But it's the best I got. I'm not so good at making long-term plans. I'm more of a crisis-situation kind of planner. I do well under pressure.

Well, I'll figure something out eventually. Soon. At least I did well on my SATs, so that's not a big problem. 2100, but I only got a 600 on the math. I may retake it. Blah.

Sayonara,
Kimi-chan

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