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yucky

I went to Sand Hollow again with my sis yesterday. The only problem with this time was that this time, I got swimmers itch. Basically it means a freaky little bacteria tried to burrow in my skin all over and so I have an equivalent to bug bites all over. Gah it's nasty stuff. I look like I have chicken pox. Went to the doctor though and they gave me a prescription, but they said they weren't positive it would help. So... I'm stuck with this from either two days to two weeks. I'm not very happy about it.
But anyhow.
Had some issues the last couple days emotionally. Things keep changing and I keep realizing things and it's been hard. Last night I broke down and didn't know what to do, so I called Amanda, my dance/math teacher, and she helped a lot. So.. besides all this itching I guess today is better.

Anywho, later

mmhmm

I drank a bunch of Kool-Aid and now my snot is pink. Go figure.

It is SO hot outside.. I walked out to get something out of the car and I broke a sweat. It's just too horrible. But, Washington on the 17th! Lots of green stuff. Too bad I only get to go for two days. I need a refreshing two weeks hinder this evolution. I swear all us out here are going to be scaly and slithery by the time it starts cooling off--this October.

At least our air conditioning hasn't busted again yet^^

So.. I'm retreating to my room. Maybe practicing will help me not be so cranky at the heat. And everything else.

Ah..

*sigh* I'm so confused. Caught in a situation I don't want to be in, and there's nothing I can do. I wish I could be happier. I wish I could be that person everyone looks at and thinks, wow, she is so happy, even though she has gone through so much, but I'm not that person. I cry and i try to be better and I really do love life, it's just hard for me to show it sometimes. But I don't want to be this person. I'm trying to be better. I really am. It's just hard. Especially with summer and no friends to hang out with or back me up when I'm down. I rely on other people to make me happy too much. I can't figure out how to make myself happy. Sigh. The woeful life of an american 16-year-old.

happy day

Got to spend yesterday, last night, and most of today with my bestest buddy. We had a lot of fun. I love being at her house, so comfy and pleasant. No stress^^ makes me happy. I need a break from this place sometimes.
So I'm happy tonight to have got to spend all that time with her. Plus, we went on a walk last night to Tuacahn (our school) because we missed it so much. We snuck in and walked through the halls and talked about last year and how the walls smelled and laughed because it felt weird to be there without wearing our uniforms. We walked by the dance studio with the huge windows and talked some more and then went over to the amphitheater and found Matt (my prospective boyfriend) and Talon (Leah's prospective boyfriend) and talked to them while they worked concessions. I've missed Matt lol.
Anyhow^^ goodnight

Neh

Time: 5:21pm
Mood: tired

I am tired. And not feeling great. And lonely, but wanting to be all alone more than anything right now. I don't like days like these and I can't seem to jump out of being depressed. I wish I could be somewhere else but here.
*sigh*