For the record, I finished Brave New World in plenty of time before school started, and as I thought I would be, I was deeply changed by the book. Very helpless ending though. Yet it was the perfect ending. I recommend the book. I can almost certainly promise you will hate it, but I think it is important to read.
I have decided that I have obtained the I-Feel-Like-I-Just-Got-Hit-By-A-Truck syndrome. I have found no solid cures yet, though identifying the triggers that set off the attacks and avoiding them are supposedly supposed to help.
identifiable triggers are as follows:
hurting someone you love
someone you love hurting you
being hurt by someone who doesn't give a damn
shutting down
being overwhelmed
I have also found in my personal study that a significant decrease in hugs, logical conversation, and an increase in being alone intensify this condition immensely.
Okay, well, I broke up with Alex last night. Yup, I lose everybody I love and then I go and dump the only one I had left. I am one smart cookie.
Also possibly going to have to find somewhere else to live to go to school. Which sucks. I hope it works out.
I applied for more jobs today. Someone better hire me or a money-starved homicidal violist is going to do some damage in this town.
Okay. I need to go write up my senior project proposal and revise an essay. Or I may just go to sleep. That sounds SO much better.
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