*sigh* I'm so confused. Caught in a situation I don't want to be in, and there's nothing I can do. I wish I could be happier. I wish I could be that person everyone looks at and thinks, wow, she is so happy, even though she has gone through so much, but I'm not that person. I cry and i try to be better and I really do love life, it's just hard for me to show it sometimes. But I don't want to be this person. I'm trying to be better. I really am. It's just hard. Especially with summer and no friends to hang out with or back me up when I'm down. I rely on other people to make me happy too much. I can't figure out how to make myself happy. Sigh. The woeful life of an american 16-year-old.