Whoa!

I feel so disconnected from this place xD i was about to update myO when i thought "will anyone look at this?" so here i am updating theO. hopefully someone will come around and see me ^^ i still have no idea how to make friends on theO

So, work is great for me, my boss has been hiring a whole buncha people and im training a new hostess soon. In fact, the new hostess may actually be my potential roomate!

She recently asked if i was interested in moving in with her, and i am very much! I havent been able to talk to her since then about it, her dad recently went back to iraq so i honestly havent wanted to bring it up because she's been so sad ^^ i would love to move out though, you all know how my family is, i want to get away for them, at least for a couple of months to get my head clear and find some peace of mind within myself.

oh! and at work i got a raise! only 50 cents but still ^^ i was excited, i feel like i do really well and work really hard and deserve it

So i got a haircut on saterday. it looked ok, but i thought i needed to dye it darker...so i did! heres a picture:

Careful Brandi, your otaku is showing.

Ah yes, the title of this is indeed what i have heard many times from my sister. Both of us being Anime and Manga fans.

I just finished both seasons of Genshiken tonight. it is 4 AM now and of course, my favorite time to speak my mind. Genshiken is about about a college club for otaku and the lifestyle its members pursue. The title is a shortening of the club's official name, Gendai Shikaku Bunka Kenkyūkai , or "The Society for the Study of Modern Visual Culture" The series is highly revolved arond doujinshi, particularly x-rated and thereofore it is aimed more towards the Male crowd. However, i suffered through the 1st season and came out with something more then a new perspective on perverted otakus! i came out realising that the whole series, is based on how we are different. How we as otaku, can come together and be ourselves. (and how we are in our way perverts...gender has no place)

For one such as myself, a person that grew up not knowing anyone in real life that liked Anime i was always embarressed by it. the type of friends i grew up, the crowd that i often followed in school...well... an anime fan was typically...opposit of them.

maybe thats why i never fit in, because i following people that werent like me, i was simply going through the crowd, not admitting to who i was as a person.

I think it took me some time, and a lot of solitude, and and basic emo-ness to make me realise who i felt more comforable around.

being and anime fan in world where anime isnt yet well known(although in the last couple of years its popularity is going way up!) is hard enough, but being an anime fan with no anime friends, is even harder! and when i did finally find those dear friends i was looking for, i felt unworthy. i felt as if i didnt even fit in with THEM.

But anyway, genshiken touched me personally, and as the characters came out to who they were, and what embraced what they enjoyed as anime fans, it made me remember why i love anime so much.

and as i fall asleep tonight, i fall asleep with a bit more love for who i am, and the incredibly hopeful wishing that there will be a 3rd season of genshiken.^^;

The Drop

The Drop It is said that the drop is located at the center of humanity. reaching on 3 yards across, it is unknown how long the drop actually descends. The large abyss is surrounded by a short wasteland of dry earth and dead curving trees. there is a high stone fence to protect it all, and to the people of this lowly earth it is unclear as to when it was built, and who built it. The Drop is said to bet he beginning of life, and for many it is life itself...but in the end, it is death to them all; weather it voluntary or not.

For the beautifully sculpted woman standing just beyond its gates, it was life itself. She was a small woman, no taller then 5 feet with a fit body, the body of a warrior. She his behind a black painted mask- the sign of a kings assassin. her clothes were thin, and her armor hadnt been polished in months, yet the way she carried on would set anyone to awe.

It was cat-like, a sly saunter across the dirty terrain. she reached out to touch the legendary stone, feeling its delicate materials slowly crumbling to dust she realized that her mission was at an end. All of her searching, all of the lives that had come this far had never gone farther and come back to say so.

Once she moved beyond this fence, whatever lay ahead was waiting for her, and not even a strong hard woman such as herself could hold back the shivers that ran up her throat. it was one-way ticket to death.

She knew that she had no choice, the legends, the myths of what lay on at the bottom of the drop were to good to pass up. she had to do this. It was her lives calling.

When she was younger, she had faced bullies, teachers not willing to teach such a delicate girl, violent masters, and sadistic housemate. When she was older, she faced deception, revenge, killing of the innocent, and full one armies.

Yet at this very moment, none of it seemed worthy. It was nothing like walking into the gates of hell. and so she allowed herself to cry, cry and move forward, up the rocky surface of the gate, anticipating the first site of the drop.

more to come.

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Whoa first post! xD i feel kinda weird, and i can't help but miss myo ;.; but thats fine! unless none of my friends add me here, this is where i shall stay!

So first off, you'll notice it says "Myurr's blog" instead of like, "Liquidsilver's blog" because pretty much everywhere else on the internet im known as Myurr xD People also call me Murry ...

But anyway, so i have a date on Wednesday and im freaking out about it. All of you that have known me for a long time know that dates and hanging out are something an anti-social girl like myself never does. Im so afraid that ill say something stupid or that he'll realize that im not as great as i seemed! IM SCARED!!!!! And as much as i want to like, be calm and just go through with it, my insides are doing like, insane crazy back-flips and whatnot and i just cant be all calm and collected over it. i dont know how im going to get through it ): wish me luck! ill post more later