ONE FLIPPING WEEK!!!! O.o

Yup! One more long week and then its Walt Disney World for me. So every time I go on one of these things I ask my friends to think of random pictures (Or VIDEOS!!!) for me to take :D Heh...SO! DOWN TO BUSSY-NESS!

1) Take a picture of You and Peter Pan kissing
2) Take a piture of the Mad Hatter giving you a cheek kiss
3) Getting a piggy-back-ride from Peter Pan
4) Lunch with Peter Pan
5) Lunch with Alice and the Mad Hatter

That's my list so far. Shout out your request and I'll do them! Please, I need something to do while there that's artistic at least! :)

Not Dead Yet ~<3

Haha long time no heard from eh? I've been super busy. So I have spacers in my teeth and next Wedsday I get my top braces. So I've been totally busy as heck. I have a Band Fest to get ready for and I'm totally scared that I won't be able to play cuz of my braces. I'm in complete pain right now and I'm doped up on pain meds. So I have this situation, and I want your answers.

There's this top shot junior who never ever dates freshmen girls, like he stays away from them. But he's been talking to me, and basicly if I have sex with him then he'll stay with me (a.k.a be my bf). O.k I really like him and I know he's not doing this as a hit it and leave it kind of thing. But I'm not sure what my parents would think. I'm 15 and a half and I kind of feel like I'm too young but still...I mean he promised we'd do it the safe way but I'm just so scared that I'll end up as one of the preggy girls in my class O.o I don't think I can handle getting preg and I don't believe in killing babies! What should I do, i mean he makes perfect sense with this being the whole trust test and stuff but, well what do y'all think? what should I do??

You

We all can lie. Some, aren't so good at it, and while others, can wear such perfect mask. That's what I'm doing now, since you've left. You got my hopes high and you bring me down like wave. My world is fading, in and out. "Let's not give this up." I'll say. You turn not listening. I'll say it a little louder. You walk away this time. I take one foot, and put it in front of the other, and I'm walking after you. You turn into that beautiful bird, and fly away. I start to run. Panic in my heart, fear in my tears. Taste the blood, see the darkness. Breathe in death and let go of your life. Snow, so beautiful, it starts to fall. My breath is coming short. My vision starts to fade. Snow piles around me and you stop, no longer the bird, and you stare. You stare at me like you're hungry. I'm crying, begging you not to leave. Telling you I'm sorry. Over and over again. It's not fair. I can't think. My life sucks. Scary monsters of the dark creep toward me. I'm scared. I cry out in pain as they slash at my vunerable body. They hold me down and you're just sitting there watching. Like you're proud of this sick game. I can't breathe. I grab and I punch but my hand goes through them like I'm some kind of ghost. They're choking me. STOP! I;m falling now. Into the night time sky, but it feels liek water. No, this isn't the sky, this is the pool of tears that I've cried for you. You plan to kill me this way. I hate water, I scream when I break the surface, but I'm soon silenced. I died. That's it. Nothing special. I won't wake ever again. My life, is over.

So why is it then, I woke up this morning? There beside you, warm in your arms. Is this Heaven? It can't be. For I am terrible, but it has you in it, and I'm happy for now. Your touch calms me, and I drift back into my Wonderland.

First Day Back :'(

So I've told y'all that I was out sick right? Well today is Monday and I wanted to go back to school today, well I wouldn't have if I knew I was going to walk in on nothing but drama. So y'all know how I'm scared about Josh leaving me...? Well I get to homeroom this mornign and Alexis and Melanie walk up to me and ask me if I was lying about Josh and I EVER going out. And I told them no! Why would they ever think of such a thing??? And they told me that Mitch (Josh's brother) told them that I had been lying about all of it and that Shannon found me out and told Josh who then told her that we never were dating and Shannon's brother told me this thursday and Mitch and Ian were going around saying that the reason I left early was because I was "upset" that I had been discovered for my lies. OK the real reason I left was because I was coughing up blood and I had a fever of a 101.6. Ok no but it gets better. So Mitch doesn't talk to me at all. He doesn't sit at our lunch tablr or anything. Josh and him deleated me from their Facebook pages. Ok and to put the cherry onto of this bad day my mom got into a car accident and was rushed to the Dublin VA Hospital by my dad. It is now 9:44 P.M and they still aren't home. She hasn't even gotten her x-rays yet :( I want to die. I feel like I'm slipping back into that hole I was in before Josh came into my life :'(

Front page and 22 ranking

I cried this morning T.T I got on to see some more wonderful artwork and I saw my colored bunny girl had made first page *cries* and I saw that I was in the rankings as number 22. I was so happy that I dragged my dad (who is also an artist and owns his own toy company) out of bed to show him how I was doing on my first art website. He just smiled and said "That's my girl. Keep on truckin." I think he was more suprised to see that I had posted art. You see for over a year now I haven't drawn or painted anything..... I got really depressed, I think he's just more happy that he go his Lizzy back. I feel like I'm back, and its all thanks to you wondeful, wonderful people! And my bf Josh ^///^ *group hug* Thank you so much everyone! *cries* *Sniff sniff*