We all can lie. Some, aren't so good at it, and while others, can wear such perfect mask. That's what I'm doing now, since you've left. You got my hopes high and you bring me down like wave. My world is fading, in and out. "Let's not give this up." I'll say. You turn not listening. I'll say it a little louder. You walk away this time. I take one foot, and put it in front of the other, and I'm walking after you. You turn into that beautiful bird, and fly away. I start to run. Panic in my heart, fear in my tears. Taste the blood, see the darkness. Breathe in death and let go of your life. Snow, so beautiful, it starts to fall. My breath is coming short. My vision starts to fade. Snow piles around me and you stop, no longer the bird, and you stare. You stare at me like you're hungry. I'm crying, begging you not to leave. Telling you I'm sorry. Over and over again. It's not fair. I can't think. My life sucks. Scary monsters of the dark creep toward me. I'm scared. I cry out in pain as they slash at my vunerable body. They hold me down and you're just sitting there watching. Like you're proud of this sick game. I can't breathe. I grab and I punch but my hand goes through them like I'm some kind of ghost. They're choking me. STOP! I;m falling now. Into the night time sky, but it feels liek water. No, this isn't the sky, this is the pool of tears that I've cried for you. You plan to kill me this way. I hate water, I scream when I break the surface, but I'm soon silenced. I died. That's it. Nothing special. I won't wake ever again. My life, is over.

So why is it then, I woke up this morning? There beside you, warm in your arms. Is this Heaven? It can't be. For I am terrible, but it has you in it, and I'm happy for now. Your touch calms me, and I drift back into my Wonderland.