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YUKO ANDO, YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION!!! O.O

Holy crap...Just read her wiki page bio...Go, go, it's...remarkable...TT^TT

I mean, I'm exaggerating here, but I find her to be...the kind of person I've always wanted to be. If she goes on as being an artist in the future...Then...wow...All the things I've wanted to do in my life.

Well, right now I want to become an artist...but I'm also kinda leaning to a career in film...but I also like singing and stuff on the side...

Which...is...just like Yuko Ando...'orz

I want to be like Yuko Ando! TT^TT I mean, it's not just that, it's how she is. She's very honest and straightforward to her listener's questions, she doesn't seem overly confident about everything, she is a rather independent person. I TOTALLY respect her...after listening to her music, and reading more about her...

What you can learn in 20 minutes...XD Seriously, didn't take me very long to be incredibly wowed by her!

Of course...speaking of what I'd like to be...I seem to be...totally dedicated to manga currently...

Of course, this could change...But I don't think of art as my 'hobby' like others do. I think of it seriously. Though I'm not offended in any way if people say it's bad, I try hard, but I can obviously see the mistakes...('course, that'd be rubbing it in my face...>.>)

But I've been very interested in fashion and design right now...And I've read lots of people's comments on DA 'n stuff about how they like the manga style etc., but they also liked fashion and design, and they THOUGHT they liked it enough to become a fashion designer so they went to a fashion school. Apparently that was the worst decision of their life (says them). They didn't really like fashion and all that jazz, they just thought they did and found it interesting.

I also read somebody's journal entry on DA where they talked about how if you want a job in art, you better be serious about art or it'll ruin your life. If you just think of it as a hobby, then it's not going to work out and you'll bother yourself...

Probably end up depressed and miserable and cause suicide and die...

Uhhh...sorry...XD I just think of life like that. Like if I made this decision, what could possibly be the outcome. How would I like to live my life?

For me, I want to be like Clint Eastwood or something. I want to be the kind of person who does a ton in their life. I want to do several things in my life, but ultimately be dedicated to manga (in the end)...

In fact, I've planned out my life after high school...sorta...I want to go to an art college...get some kind of degree (still thinking about that), then go over to Japan, get to hard core studying to learn everything I can and need to know to pass any inspections or something, find a good job, maybe try to get into a talent agency to act or sing or something, then after a few years of doing whatever those things were, begin my career as a mangaka and live the rest of my life in...manga misery...XD

Something like that...Though I'll try my best to steer myself in the direction I'd like to go. Because I know not everything is going to work out, but I have to fix any problems.

So, guys! I really think you guys should think through how you want your life to be and think really hard about it. The things you want to do, do you REALLY love those kinds of things, and you think you're really cut out for it? I mean, if your not, find something else you have a talent in, or try much more harder than what you do now. Become way more determined and try as hard as you can to get to where you want to be! >:D

Ahhh, Yuko Ando, you inspire me so much~!

So all you wanna do is take my dress off...

I dunno...I was listening to BoA's Dress Off...XD

I don't really like that song...but...I'm tired of H!P songs...that's all I seem to be getting on last.fm...Umm...well, on the station I'm listening to. I like listening to this one station, but it keeps saying that there aren't any songs for that station...O.o

'nyways...I have done NOTHING today~! :D No, I have, with the requests and all, but besides that...I've been playing around with some stuff...but that's about it...I am having an art overload...>.> There are so many things I want to do, but I can't decide on which one to do...'orz It's like an art block, except you have TOO many ideas instead of little to none...

Sooo I did this:

I edited pictures of visual kei singers on SAI so that they would look like my characters from that one manga I've been talking about. I'm thinking of calling it Necromansters...and the band Necromansters...but something about having the MANGA called Necromansters...I mean, if you were looking through manga titles and you saw that, you'd probably think it was liiike a shounen or something...or something dark...'cause it has Necro in the name...XD

I might name the manga something else, but I'm probably going to name the band Necromansters, because it sounds SO MUCH like Shig-san named it that...XD

Soooo I'll tell you who's supposed to be who:

Saga (top far left) is supposed to be Kyo, the dark aura guy who's actually incredibly bright and outgoing when he's not in school. He's very smart and is often pointing out flaws or problems that need to be fixed. He's da bassist~! >:D

Shou (next to Saga, dur) is supposed to be Madoka, the main singer. He's very shy and kinda girly and very quiet, but just because he's quiet doesn't mean he's not thinking anything. He's always thinking and he notices things that others don't and he's actually much closer to the other members than...the other members are to eachother...XD He's the guy that the other members like to talk to and just say things to (like break down and cry on his shoulder...XD). He's best friends with the guy on next to him, Masumi.

Shinpei (next to Shou, again, this is obvious people...XD) is supposed to be Masumi, the keyboardist. He comes in latuuur. He's very bossy and gets mad easily and embarrassed easily. He's very small and looks like a doll, but he doesn't want to be thought of as the cute one who looks like a doll, he wants to be the cool one, so he tries everything to look cool (but it's too darn cute~! X3). He's the shortest member (Madoka being second shortest)...obviously...XD He's very serious about music so he's not really that fond of Shig-san's silliness...

Mai (under Saga) is supposed to be Shig, the leader and drummer. He's really silly, as I've been trying to tell you guys...XD He's always very happy and very strange. He is/was very popular in school, but he has bad social skills. He's not very good at meeting people for the first time (he's popular with other kids because they're like childhood friends...O.o). He likes old bands and strange bands with strange clothes (like jumpsuits 'n stuff) so he's...well...very outdated...strange with clothes...O.o

Chiyu (next to Mai) is supposed to be Aoi, the guitarist. He's probably the most (seemingly) normal member of the group. He's very nice and trusting and is silly sometimes. He makes for a good friend...buuuut...he has another side...>.> Which...I dunno if I've told you yet, but if I haven't, I'M NOT TELLING!

Well, that's it...I have to go to bed...school night...forgot...TT^TT

Stereotypes...XD

Anime stereotypes, not the other kind (the other kind makes me mad). I was just reading about some anime stereotypes, and I totally agree that they're usually in manga 'n stuff....XD

And then I took some 'What Anime Stereotype Are You?' quizzes...and I goot...Pretty Tomboy, Hero in Denial, The Loner, and The Novice (:D)...O.o They're all so strange! TT^TT But apparently I'm usually the dark, mysterious, secretive, alone person...O.o

I also took some test a while ago for school, it was a test to see what kind of way you should learn...I got an active learner. A person who loves to participate groups and do hands on activities and needs to diagrams to understand things and blah, blah, blah....O.o

I...can't learn at all that way. I'm like the opposite of an active learner...so how did I get an active learner!?

Personality quizzes....they're very hard...

I like some of the ones on here because I know what's going on, with other ones I get really confused and I keep making contradictions with what I say, because it has to do with the question...O.o

Like in the learning style one...it asked what I'd like to teach, and I said stuff based on theories and stuffs, but that's because I'd like to teach stuff like mythology and things like that...and I like learning that stuff, but I also like learning facts 'n stuff...and there were only two choices...TT^TT I'm in between, I don't know! TT^TT

There are more choices on a lot of theO quizzes, so it's so much easier to get through compared to that learning styles quiz...>.>

Oh! I resolved a problem~! I moved to last.fm instead of Pandora, because Pandora was getting on my nerves and I like last.fm more because they have liiike every band I've ever heard of and WAAAY more...O.o So I've listened to a bunch of Jpop artists I've never heard ANYTHING about...O.O

last.fm is AWESOME~!!! And you get recommendations based on the bands you like 'n stuff. So if you like Exist Trace, there will be recommendations under the player of bands similar to them, which I totally agree are similar to them.

I don't think I need to listen to the files on my music anymore...>:D I'll just forget the names of singers a lot...O.o Ehh...I'll put their names down if I like them...XD

Another thing, that I'm not sure I talked about...The anime at my school is now an official club~! Which means we can have meetings during class~! :D And there are three different teachers working on it, too. So it's going to be really fun.

I'm just worried about how I could do this...O.o I want it to be a fun club with organized things going on, but I don't want to be the leader, and I don't want anybody who's higher than anybody...but I'm the one organizing this....TT^TT I don't know what to do...I guess I'll just inform people in the beginning, and then they can do other research on topics and the like and add in extra stuff so that we can all be together on this...yes...yes...That might work...or something...

I'll just be the...the organizer? Person who keeps things going on...Ehhh...yeah, I'm the leader...'orz No, no, I'm like the teacher...or something...I dunno...TT^TT

I can't work on that many requests tonight because I have to watch a movie (which I hope will be good, it's called 'The Last Station') and I'll probably be crapped out from it...>.> Like I usually am (which is why I don't listen to that much anime).

I was going to say something else, but I forgot...O.o

My mom bought organic ramen, and she ordered the flavours 'Asian vegetable' and 'Lemon and Ginger'...which both sound really boring and gross. Lemon and Ginger are two are my least favourite singers of all time...But this was DELICIOUS!! Woow~! O.O

I like all ramen...XD Or just the ramen I've tried...XD

Bye~! Time to get something to eat~!

...is very bothered...

Pandora...*shakes head*...

I'm trying to listen to music on there...and...I keep getting stuff that I don't like or stuff with not singing or boring songs and blah...TT^TT I don't like those kinds of things.

And just 'cause I said I liked Yoko Kanno songs DOESN'T mean that I like music similar to hers. I like her music because it's very nostalgic to me...

But where are the songs that make me smile? All of these songs are just....cool sounding, I guess I like them, but I don't LOVE them.

Which, again, is why they need a rating system like how MB has it. How much do you like this song out of 5 stars...

Oooh! O.O I got the first song I've ever heard from Ayumi Hamasaki (finally I get some Jpop! TT^TT)! O.O Boys & Girls...O.O I actually like that song...XD

I like Ayumi Hamasaki's songs...but...her voice...ruins the song for me...>.> It's not that I hate her voice, it just sounds bad to my ears...I don't know what it is...probably just the really nasally sounds....

Oh! I should get back to those requests...XD

...:D I love my chinese teacher~!

Today we were talking about Han Hong, Jay Chou, and Super Junior! XD How awesome! XD I mean, we were talking about how BEAUTIFUL Han Hong's voice is...it just melts you...TT^TT And then about the movies Jay Chou was in and then she told me that she knows all the names of the members of Super Junior and knows who everyone is and everything...O.O

I...only...know...Ryeowook and Leeteuk...and Han Geng...TT^TT I'm trying...but...'tis...hard...TT^TT I know their faces, but when I see pictures of them I'm like 'Who are you?' I can only figure out who is who in their videos, but I don't know their names because of that reason...'orz...

Which makes me question her age...XD She looks really young...so I wonder if she's really young...liiiike 20s or something 25 or around that age, maybe...

She said that she'd show us chinese MVs some time in the year like rap MVs 'n stuffs, but for some reason she can't figure out how to get it to the computer to play. She also said she's not a computer person so she doesn't really know...XD

So I can have better conversations with her about certain Chinese singers, I'm going back to my lists...XD

She doesn't know who Alan is, though...Ah, well, I didn't expect her to know...XD Maybe it's because her Pinyin name is Ālán Dáwǎzhuōmǎ...and I wrote down Alan Dawa Dolma...still...maybe she could've figured it out from the beginning...O.o

She also told me to e-mail her...something...O.o She told me to e-mail her to get more music or something like that...XD I will e-mail her...but I'm not exactly sure what to say...'orz

I'm gonna try working on requests today...if I get bored with them, I'll just work harder tomorrow and try my best to finish them all...XD

I've also suddenly made a new friend...I keep making friends REALLY REALLY FAST....O.O I think I've overcome a part of my shyness or something....Realized certain things about humanity...O.o

I made a new friend who's a freshman...O.o I have one class with freshman, and I hate all the freshman in there! XD I have two other friends who are freshman...O.o And I don't understand my point...XD Weelll yesterday my brother and I went to an Academic Team match and he was the only new person on the high school academic team who came...

So apparently he joined the same time that I joined the Academic Team for the first time, and he's also terrible at it...:D But despite him saying that and giving them proof by counting all the times he's answered a question...the other members don't believe him...XD They're like 'But he's Asian! That's not possible!' They created this stereotype because all the times we were against a team with an Asian on their team, the Asian was always their best member...

But this kid his...probably like...part something...Because he has no accent what-so-ever (not even country...XD)...and that's the only thing that I can tell...MYSTERIES! O.O I think he's part Japanese because he told me that he knew some question about Treasure Island only because he read the book in Japanese...O.o And he kept making origami out of candy wrappers...XD

I secretly hope he's as bad as I am, because then I'll have somebody to bad at Academic Team, but go to all the matches, too. Because my brother is one of the best members of the team, then there's his friend, then his friend who's in my grade (my friend also, but only because I'm related to my brother...O.o), then my brother's friend and my friend's older brother, and then my brother's friend who's in my grade's best friend...and...only my brother, his friends in my grade annnd...well...that's actually it...That's all the people that show up as many times as we can (like if we're sick that day, then of course we're not coming to Academic Team...XD) show up...O.o The rest graduated...TT^TT Plus now I'm the only girl because the other one graduated and my friend is trying to become an actress and she keeps having plays and auditions so she rarely goes to any of the matches...

So I want ONE FRIEND who doesn't ignore me...TT^TT Or make fun of me...>.> I mean, I have the teachers, but how boring is that?

And there's other really good members, but they're all in band and they rarely come...because band is all week...'orz Except for Wednesday I think....O.o

Oh! And here's a...somewhat quick story of how frustrating where I live is...TT^TT

Sooo yesterday my brother and I thought that we would go to the Academic Team Tournament by bus, but it turns out we're supposed to go there by ourselves...So I tried to find my brother because he had the phone so I could call our parents or tell him to call them so that they could take us to the school where it was (and to make sure he knows what's going on, and I live 30 minutes away from the school...SOOO...not exactly a good position to be in)....but I couldn't find him ANYWHERE and I went all over the school, so I just went outside to wait for my parents if they would come because I thought he might be out there, but he wasn't, but my parents were (for some strange reason). Then they told me that my brother went back inside to find me...so I went back inside to find my brother, and I looked EVERYWHERE again, even asked for the office to call for him...so then I decided to go back to my car because I thought he'd be there, but the band was out there and my parents weren't...TT^TT

So I went all the way back to the front of the school (my parents park behind the school) and there they all were.

But that's not the end of my story! 'orz

Then we went to go get some smoothies so that we weren't starving (in case they didn't have any food, which it turns out they did) so we went to the usual place we go to after school...but they were CLOSED...And there was road work so it was really hard to drive there, and then we had to drive back. Then we went to the square to go to some kind of restaurant to get some smoothies or something, NONE OF THEM EXCEPT SUBWAY WERE OPEN. So we just went to Subway...>.>

But that's not the end of my story (but it's almost over...XD)

Then we got to the school, saw some of the members outside, so we went inside to go to the library (where we usually have matches), but nothing was set up...so we were really confused...Then some really nice man came and told us that it was in ANOTHER BUILDING. He took us there, and we FINALLY found our teachers and the rest of the team... (which was liiike...2 more players...we had my brother's friends in my grade, and the freshman with us before, so we only had 7 players...O.o) And our (stupid) coach told us 'Oh? Didn't you get the memo?'...WHAT!? WHAT THE HECK!? She said she didn't find out where it was until 2 PM...annnd...we live 30 minutes away...and school lets out at 3 PM and we were supposed to be there by 4:45 PM...sooo we didn't really have time go home AT ALL...>.> take off 1 hour for getting home and back to the school, plus the time it'd take to eat...just not enough time...>.> And we wanted to get there early so it wouldn't be so chaotic and 'what's going on?' kind of thing...>.>

Bahhh...communication is terrible...

That same coach said we'd be taking buses, too...TT^TT

Okay, okay, I'm done. I think that's enough things to say...XD