Still not working...XD
But I can't stop listening to this song:
PV...is a bit boring...O.o I think it should've been in at a train station kind of thing and it's like a clean up or something and they have caution strips everywhere and there's stuff like that and you see what happened before with some random actors...But just my idea...XD
I hear the train in it...Though I wonder if they meant to do that...
Anyways, I wrote some lyrics inspired by it:
CLOSED
Encouragement is what the people want
Smiles are I can give them
To keep going on
Keep on running, until they reach the inevitable cliff
A sudden sprint and then a groundless fall
Her kindness touched me and I returned it
But I had been filled with regrets
The tower was beginning to fall and crack and break
Her childish words only irritated me
I would like to keep that tower standing, but how much can I take?
I wish to close these thoughts
I try to put them in a box, and leave them behind
I wish to close these thoughts
So you wouldn’t have to feel pain
I wish to close these thoughts
And just keep smiling
I don’t want our tower in the sky to break
Her happiness left me with pain
You lie to yourself and me
With those childish words and acts
As much as I smile, I wish for your ladder to fall
I wish for despicable things like that
It’s that like this that lead to inevitable pain
We can run together and when we reach the end
I’ll push you off with all intention
The inside me will snap
Our tower will fall
I wish to close these thoughts
I try to put them in a box, and leave them behind
I wish to close these thoughts
So you wouldn’t have to feel pain
I wish to close these thoughts
And just keep smiling
I don’t want our tower in the sky to break
I don’t want to hurt you
But I can’t help these despicable thoughts
I wish to not say goodbye to our happiness
And it will stop
It will be closed
Ummm...soooo....it's a bit demented...XD It wasn't supposed to be like that (I don't really hate my friend and I don't want to push her off a cliff, it's just a metaphor about how I'd like to tell her that she's not very talented at something, but that'll probably crush her). It's just my frustration and pain of my friend's personality and how she acts. It's not that she's a kid or anything it's just that the way she acts reminds me of the regrets of my acting when I was a child and it irritates me when she acts like that. And I try to act interested and stuff, but really I'm kinda sad that she thinks that way...>.>
For example, this one time she was listening to music and then she told me 'I've been playing the drums recently and now I keep accidentally tapping like I'm playing the drums when I listen to music' and so she started listening to music and INTENTIONALLY tapping and trying to tell herself that's a habit. I did the same thing...like you're trying to act like you have an interesting habit, but you don't have it.
It pains me to see that...as in...*face palm*...Stop lying to yourself, mon, that's not really a habit. And she only did it that one day...soooo....O.o That's kinda odd...
And she keeps doing stuff like that. And she's a TERRIBLE writer...TT^TT It's so sad...TT^TT
She wrote this story about a girl who goes to a school for the supernatural...sounds pretty cliche...and everything happens really fast so you don't know what's going on and I even told her that and she told me 'that's how it's supposed to be, it's a mystery'...Nooo...that's not what I meant...TT^TT And then when she describes her characters she goes something like this:
And that was Zack, he's a werewolf, he wears lots of hoodies and wears converses, and then there's Sandy, the ghost and she wears lots of mini skirts, but she doesn't wear converses.
Like that...TT^TT Ugg...it's...terrible...TT^TT I felt bad telling her it was bad and totally unoriginal and blah blah blah, so I didn't...and I feel like I did something wrong by encouraging her to write more because now she wants to become a writer!! TT^TT
First she wanted to be a translator, but then she gave up on that, then she wanted to be a rock star (not sure how that's going), now she wants to be a writer, she also told me she wants to be an artist. That could actually happen. She is a VERY talented artist! She wows me every time. She's really good at copying things, but when she's not copying things and just doing artsy things she's WAAAAY better than I am and all her stuff always turns out WAAAY better than mine...I don't think anybody else notices it except for me, though...XD In a way I feel jealous of her for that, which is why I keep getting more and more determined to improve.
This is that friend that drew that picture of Kairi that coloured:
And she just started drawing manga at the end of last year! O.O
What did she draw before?...Nothing...she just copied everything...XD
I have a ton of friends who just copy drawings and say it's theirs. That really makes me mad, especially when I try to tell them that's plagiarism and they say 'I mean, I used that picture as reference, but I DID draw it. And it doesn't look exactly like that picture, I changed it a bit.'...Yes...but that's still copying it...>.>
I have a friend who copies drawings and her normal drawings are OKAY...and she acts like she's the best artist in the world...>.> She says that she wants to be a massage therapist, but she COULD be a professional artist, but she thinks of it more as a hobby...She actually told me that...O.o
My friends annoy me a lot sometimes because of things like that...
And what's this obsession with teens and gothic stuff!? I don't understand...
I mean, I like visual kei and gothic lolita...and all that kind of stuff and some gothic things like that...BUUUT...I like it because it's more artsy and detailed and interesting compared to plainer fashions and I like to draw that stuff. Plus the men look really pretty...>:D
But there are several girls at my school who wear mostly black gothic looking clothes with something violent or implying violence or death on them with lots of make-up, dyed black hair, long black hair, and some of them have a ton of piercings and they always try to act really cool and dark...O.o
I wear a lot of black...and my skin is very pale...and for some reason people think of me as the good little girl and not a goth girl...O.o I'm kinda surprised. Well, maybe it's because all the clothes I wear are...what's the word? Formal? I just don't like jeans and since I like stuff like visual kei...well, if you take out all of the really crazy stuff and all the accessories...well, it looks pretty formal...XD
I just wonder...what will they be like when they grow up? And adults in their 30's and older always complain about this and show teens to be gothic and rebellious...But...what about what THEY were like in school? And now they're grown up and might act the same or different...
Strange how humans change...
Uhhh...I should get back to work...'orz
