And the title is a lie 'cause no rants are 'itty bitty'
First offfffff....
I decided to re-do Idolling. I also told my friend who has an awesome idea for a manga to write out her story so I can draw it into a manga...And then that Bloodlust manga and then mah webcomic and the I Hate You thing...sooo....BASICALLY I am just digging meself a grave in work. Actually my plan for all these different projects isn't for me to do all of them at once or try and get them all done at once, but more like plant them and let them grow into better ideas. Ideas that are in the back of my head at all times that I can work on whenever I feel like so I am never bored~
I was re-reading Idolling and I was very disappointed in how I introduced the characters. Ana is a hot headed and stubborn jerk of a character, Hisoka likes Ana out of the blue, and Sachie is just really really weird. Not to mention the fact that none of the members of Sw33t actually have any personalities, that you can see. This is not good in my book. I think characters should be introduced a little bit at a time, or maybe all at once, but not with equal amount of introduction because then that makes things confusing.
So I went back and tried to focus the story some more and I ended up with more than a romance~ It turns out that Hisoka, Ana, Momone, Ikuya, and some other characters all represent a different idea of what it means to be successful in the world. My original idea for Idolling was Ana's explorations of different career choices with a background of the idol industry and that failed, but with this new look at Idolling I can totally do that now~ :D
You see, there are the dreams of being idols which are not only unrealistic but most people think that idols are pretty pointless an being an idol isn't something you exclaim and then have people be all like 'This person deserves so much of my respect'.
Then there are the jobs like doctors etc. that the majority of people look at as successful jobs.
Those are based in reputation. But then don't you also get success from making a lot of money? Or is it success that you are happy at your job? Or is it success that you explore the human condition? What is success? This is the main question of Idolling hence the name IDOLling. Because you idol one position over the other and seek it out as your goal.
'kay so basically Idolling has fermented into a new story with the same characters and same original theme but more clear and with a different flow. I just need to figure out how events will flow and what sort of fun scenes I wanna put in~ Also it's difficult for me to write romances right now for some reason.
Last year I was so excited about romance, and although I do still love romance mangas and dramas I don't get excited about real life romance anymore. I don't have any crushes or fantasies about anybody anymore...it's kinda sad...so it's difficult to write Idolling as a romance as I originally intended because then I feel like their romance is futile. Like why would Ana end up with that person and not the other person?
'nyway...that seemed like the rant part, didn't it? Well it's not!
It's actually a good segue into my rant.
In my japanese class we were learning comparisons and one of the questions in our workbook was: Do you like good looking or intelligent persons?
I feel like this is a common question. What do you look for in a guy? Appearances or brains?
I usually go for the brains because that seems like a better answer. How shallow of you to say appearances. You should past the appearance to the real person.
That is what pretty much EVERYONE says. This is important stuff to know so you don't become some heartless jerk or whatever.
I mean, yeah, you shouldn't base your opinions of people on appearance. But if this is based in romance then I will have to choose appearance.
I look for attractiveness in guys because I feel like that is a nicer thing to say than intelligence.
From my perspective everyone is intelligent. And I will now explain why I believe this.
If you were in a difficult math class and there is that one kid who always gets good grades or just knows what is going on in the math more than anyone else you admire him (or hate him depending on le feels at the time) for his intelligence. Then you get to know him and you learn that he parties every night and makes bad life decisions. But he is a genius as math. Is this an intelligent person?
Or if you know somebody outside of class and they study diligently and make great life decisions. Are always helping people and never think of themselves selfishly. But academically they are weak and they have a hard time dealing with money then is this person intelligent?
Maybe this person who is bad at school is extremely clever and witty and can always articulate his feelings perfectly. Is this person intelligent?
I believe both of them are intelligent. Declaring another person intelligent or not intelligent is just as shallow as saying somebody is or is not good looking. This is all based on preferences of what intelligence or beauty means.
This also may be based on my own feelings of intelligence and beauty. If somebody told me I was ugly I would be a bit saddened but it wouldn't rock my world because I know I still have intelligence. If somebody told me I was stupid then I would be in a panic mode. It hurts more to be called an idiot than to be called ugly.
So for me to choose a guy based on his appearance versus intelligence is something kind. I don't care about your intelligence, everyone is intelligent to me.
Also psychologically, you are going to judge people based on appearance so the question is worthless anyway. Your idea of that person's intelligence is also based on the image they show to you.
Another thing, I must have a different idea of good looks to everyone else. I go by the mere exposure effect in deciding if somebody is good looking, as I think most people do. Mere exposure effect is the effect of slowly becoming more attracted to a person the more you see them.
For that reason the person might become more stupid, but also more beautiful.
In conclusion, I think it is nicer to answer the question by choosing 'appearance' over 'intelligence' because psychology.
DONE WIT MAH RANNNTTTT YUSSS!!
I have been drawing a lot, but I am in my bed right now (I sleep on the top bunk) and it is difficult climbing up and down with stuff in my hand and putting my laptop down and blah so I have not put the pictures from my camera on my computer yet nor have I taken pictures of my new sketches so no sketchdump for today! ;3; BAWW
Also in other news...lately I have been less social. I just don't feel like talking to anybody anymore...I just want to do homework and write manga and watch dramas. I feel happier when I am not talking to anyone...I feel like this is both good and bad. It's good 'cause I get more work done, but it's bad because humans need to socialize so I can't just cut out socializing...but it's so boring for some reason....hrmmm...
Welp I'ma go read a manga that my friend recommended me~ TATA~
