I just want to relieve some stress right here, also so you guys know I'm alive~ :D
I just keep ignoring deviantart, theotaku, and other art places 'cause I want to stop thinking about the need to post art on there, even though I should. I just don't feel like doing any finished art pieces right now...Every time I try to finish a pic I just feel like it looks hideous or I get bored with it. I think I will get better in Spring semester. I think the problem is just that I have been learning drawing and sketching techniques and not coloring techniques, so I don't feel like posting any actual pictures right now.
I also really like traditional art and feel like I am having more fun doing that than digital. My lines on the computer are just aren't as clean as when I draw traditionally. My camera doesn't have any batteries in right now so no pictures of that.
That's due to some laziness...just don't feel like looking for batteries/going out in the cold to buy some batteries.
I have been working on my comic though! But I feel stressed out by it because I think it looks like crap and when I come to that conclusion then I can't get myself to draw the next page even though I keep telling myself 'You just need to do it, you will get better later' And it takes me sooo long to do a page...;m; Actually, that's not true. Depending on my mood it'll take me anywhere from 20 minutes to the entire day.
I am not patient when it comes to art. All the stuff you see in my portfolio has been done in under 10 hours. After 10 hours I just give up. I need to get over that, but meh...too much effort.
I have 20 more pages to do and 10 more pages to clean up. And I haven't even put the text and sfx in...mehhh....so much work. I wanted to finish by christmas, but that's not happening.
Also my arm has been hurting a lot. I am wondering if it's because of the cold weather or that I have been using it too much to draw manga. I don't feel like I've been using it that much...O.o; It just really hurts...so I've just been playing pokemon.
I got Pokemon Alpha Sapphire as a present during the holiday that my family celebrates instead of Christmas. I also got Persona 4, but I'm afraid to play it 'cause my house has no sound proofing and the voice acting in those games embarrass the heck out of me...Also the music is mostly rap and it's just and awkward game to play in front of my family. Also Pokemon Alpha Sapphire~! *3* I'm just gonna do everything in that game 'cause there is so much to do and so much I know how to do unlike some other games where it just sounds like overwhelming amount of work to do and I don't care that much, but Alpha Sapphire is coming from my childhood. If I complete that then I would feel like I did a service to my childhood.
So I've been attached to that game and can't get myself to do anymore manga pages...;orz
I just need one punch man or some manga to update so I can get inspired by some mangoes instead of video games.
I'd show you guys a preview of it, but I can't find a page that is good on it's own...which is also a problem...guhhh...blahh...Just want to get this over with, but my hand won't do it. I keep making scribble-y messes which don't make any sense and just make the page look ugly instead of drawing what I have as an outline...blahhh...
I also got some stuff for doing manga traditionally. I got mango paper, pen nibs, and ink. What am I missing here? The pen handle! I can't do anything 'cause I just have nibs and not handle...guhh...I also got some grey toned prismacolor markers which I plan to use instead of tones. Can't really replace tones with markers, but it'll give a slightly more fuller look them and tones are COMPLETELY necessary even though they make me feel better.
I am leaving next Monday to go spend some time with distant family members so I would like to get my stuff done by then, but that's probably not going to happen.
I've also been trying to make SFX that are japanese, but I am having a hard time finding japanese equivalents for what I want to say. Actually...I think half of my sfx aren't even real, they just sound like how I think something sounds...I also want to translate this into japanese and post it on pixiv.
I was wondering, though, when I finish this chapter, should I post it all at once, one page per week, a few pages per week, or what?
I have about 45 pages (I think, again, 20-or so aren't drawn yet).
The last of my pages are in color and I can't tell if that means it won't take as long or it'll take longer...probably the latter...Mehh. But they are action so I won't have to worry about the lineart which stresses me out the most. It's just every line I try to make ends up being squiggly, unlike traditionally. Nobody notices the squiggliness on paper, but on the computer it's just sooo so obvious. Maybe it has something to do with my pressure sensitivity, maybe its up too high...O.o;
Welp, that's what's been going on. Just a lot of working on manga and ignoring these websites 'cause I'm lazy.
I am gonna take an Anime and Manga class for my school's winter term which I am excited about since it's my favourite professor and a class that I really really care about, but I think it'll mainly be analysis rather than creation...I worry about how much homework there will be 'cause my friends took this last year and they told me that it had soo much homework, but I think the crazy amount of homework they were talking about was making manga, which I understand, but I have gotten to the point where it doesn't take me too long to do 10 pages, but it takes me forever to do 45 pages ('cause I run out of stamina). I guess it just takes more practice.
I'm just disappointed 'cause I planned on finishing this webcomic quick enough to work on some other comics that I planned on working on and that's just not happening...also I don't have a nib holder! ;m; So I won't be working on those comics anyway....
Adios~
