Its not easy,
Its not rough,
Your past is sleazy,
You put me though a lot of...stuff,
Time won't heal these wounds the way you'd like,
I can't go back to who I was,
I can't do everything you like,
My reasons are my own and my answer is just because.
You still try to play my like a pawn,
You still try to use me,
But this pawn is gone,
You're just too late to see-
You'll be better off without me.
I know, I've heard it all before,
How well you'll do and make me see,
How high you'll climb until you soar.
Hooray, bravo, I applaud you, most sincere,
I hope you make it there,
I hope you gain what you seek, my dear,
Its only fair-
Fair that you gain the life you seek,
Fair that you finally lose me,
Fair that you've ruined the surprise with a peek,
Fair that you've gone blind and can't see.
For if you could you would notice then,
Those women you chase are nothing like me,
You would weep in quiet desperation over them,
That you could not keep the light you had and sought the darkness, see?
Your lack of understanding only proves a deep,
Utterly infallible truth to what irony is, dear.
Your undermining words of my idiocy actually lulled me to sleep,
Your ability to undermine me, wiped clear some of my fear.
Now, I am learning to let go of my tension and let down some of my guard,
Now I'm fighting for new causes,
Now I'm finding some things to be worthwhile and hard,
But still, there's no time for pauses.
No more time to weep,
No more time to grieve,
The man that left me did so willingly, and I did, without a peep,
I left, as you asked...but now, you're the one who doesn't leave.
And I tell myself, Its going to be okay,
When asked if I'm alright I say the same,
Its going to be okay,
I tell my daughter when her father breaks her heart again, and again; oh for shame!
But baby girl, and all of you,
Keep your chin up, because days like this don't last,
Its gonna be okay, someday soon too...
So lets all put the pain in the past.
Its going to be okay,
Its going to be okay,
Its going to be okay,
Its okay-
