When thaw hast left me to lie myself upon dawn pillow and sheets of warm wool, to stay inlay tell the warmth of dust shall fall over my eyes, and skies of black abbess that shunt be void of light with the twinkles of many little fires that dance in the sky. Thus shunt I or shall I lay still and listen to the music around my ears? They be it songs of crickets and hums of the wings of flying things. Alas my face becomes damp with small drops of due from blades of soft grass. To be it the truth the cries to the moon that echo from the lawn wolf, the soft little tune sings to my soul, and awakens my heart to thaw’s plan for me. I shall not be alone and thus shall be free, free of the anguish of this world and dath shall my spirit sore above the night leaving my body behind, and within my passing shall breath a new light, through new life.

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Black Rose Lullaby

Sing me a lullaby of sweet kind bliss. Sing me a lullaby for just a moment like this. Oh how I feel like I have fallen down, please sing me a lullaby right now. Be it the lullaby for the fallen stars, who shined so bright, then hit death so hard. So sing me a lullaby, one to make me cry. I Want you to sing this lullaby because I feel as if I'm going to die. Sing me my last lullaby if I do die. Please let it have a soft tune so I have reason to close my eyes. I think of my life as a black rose, so misunderstood, and black as my story would show. Can you sing me a lullaby that will make it essayer for me to end my life? Now one last thing that I must add, if anyone were to ask how I died....tell them to the sound of my own Black Rose Lullaby....

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I don't know

I don't know how I'm feeling,I am crying but I don't know why.
I may be sad but there is no reason to cry, I don't know just how I'm feeling,
I feel like I'm alowne but I'm sarounded by people who love me.
So I still don't know how I'm feeling.
My body feels like shit, but I know I'm in the best health I've ever been.
So the main issue stays I don't know how I'm feeling
My thoughts are only sad ones, even when things seem to be happy
So it's odd to me how I don't know how I'm feeling....
I feel like I have nothing to live my life for, but I know that's a lie.
Even when thinking of darkness I don't know how I'm feeling
I really don't know how I'm feeling but it's not very fun, I want this to stop,
but then I don't want it to be done, I don't know how I'm feeling, or why
I can't controll it, all I want right now is for things to be good again.

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Love you

In the night I look up to see the sea of stars and I think to myself, what would it be like? If I can touch the midnight sky, to feel the blanket of light that those stars give off. I think to myself that I am wishing you here to kiss you soft lips, to put my hands in your hair, hair that is soft like silk. I think many things and I wish them too. I wish to myself that I may change, and become more of the love for you, I wish to myself that I grow old with you, and die by your side. I do many things some good and some not so as good, but one thing I haven't done lastly is, to just look at you and into your wonderful eyes and say...that I love you.

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Hate this time

"How I hate this time called life, why should I care if it's not worth a dime, if I could pick I would probably pick to die, I would do anything to leave this behind, take me now so I'll show you how ending this all right now, I'll take my chest ripping it open as my worm blood falls down, why should you dare to stop me at all in this my bitterly sweet miss understanding, the feel and smell of blood in the air, my blood, but loving every moment of pain and suffering, to know that this is the ending, and keeping in these feelings inside no more, as my blood falls to the floor, and I have to let out a devil like kind of smile, as I can feel my body no longer, all thoughts of horror are over, on this the day and hour that my death was finally over..."

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When I die

this the time of a new begging, I think to myself it should have no ending. A life that is put on a road for us to follow, is this what darkness calls out on our dieing souls? Never to know what will happen next just going through life never knowing, will today be the end of our days? Only the sun's light will tell, to tell us that it will all be ok, I know that I might not make it. So lay me under the star's brightness, I will stay in Earth's haven and see other's life go by. I will think of you forever, but please don’t cry, shed no tears for me, cause my soul is were it should be. I'm in haven looking out for you and all you do, and I'll wait for you for forever, until our two souls can meet again, so I know how much i love you and know that you will always be my sweet lover.
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I am

I am awake, but I'm still in a nightmare.
I seem to be alive, but I'm not breathing.
I have a smile on, but I'm crying on the inside.
I feel all of my emotions, but I'm locking them away.
I own these wings but I'm afraid that they are broken.
I live this life of mine, but I'm slowly dieing.....

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You and me

you and me hugging under the full moon's light, we laugh as we count the stars that are never ending, you make me smile I make you as well, truth is this is how happy I am everyday, you love me so and I as will even in death this you know I’d die for you I’d give you my soul, you give me life and this it true...I would do anything to see you. going though death and livening again just to look you in the eye and say that.....i love you

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How I feel

~the way I feel when you hold me close, it gives me the heart of gold you've come to love if I say I love you tell me the same words, i want to hold you more, i want to love you forever and i want to always know the feeling of love, without this love I feel I would die so don’t ever let me go, for that nightmare will have no end, if you let me go it'll be as if each day is a new death, so hold me and love me and I’ll do the same. save me now, then i hope to love you for forever and ever more.

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Love song

(to my BFF, she has a guy she likes I wish wish her luck and happyness)
How I love you in every way, you and me forever is what I say. Love me now love me tomorrow, love me for as long as we have breath. How I love you so, and that is why I wrote you this, our very own Love Song.
I know that I love you, and I'm shore that you love me. Everyday
that we are together makes me happy, to know i have you as my own real love.
This is our Love song, and while it may be short, I pray you think it's sweet.
Love songs don't always work but I'm hoping that by now they do on you.
I love you so that's it, this is your Love song, so i hope I that you like it.

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Golden angel

You are the angel that helped me to love. You are the stars that give me hope, love me forever, maybe even more. Oh how I love you becauand of how you make me feel. You have my heart and soul. You have even more then that but I am afraid they can't all fit in this one song. This is you, I would say you're my Golden Angel, this is a song I made just for you. You are to me all mine, my Golden Angel, so unique and 100% beautiful. So mush I love you that I needed more then those three words can say, so I wrote you this, your very own song, to show our love is that strong, so if you ever feel allow, keep in mind you're my Golden Angel.

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Dead man's poem...

A dead man has no words to say.
A dead man has no secrets to save.
A dead man has no feelings to show.
A dead man has no love to hold.
A dead man has no soul to prove.
A dead man has no body to lose,
A dead man has only sadness and pain,
A dead man is all that remains,
And when Death himself comes for me,
A dead man is all I'll be...

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If I?

(something a buddy of mine wanted for his girl, hope you two are happy)
If I told you I love you, Would you tell me the same? If I said that I really care for you, will you feel that as will? So if I told you "I'm in love with only you" would you always stay? I know that I love you, and I know that you are mine, so I know that when you give me a wedding ring, you will ask me "Will you be mine?" then I know I will cry, and I know that I'll say "Yes" Because let's face it, you and I were always meant to have met.

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Train

When life is set, it is set like a train on the tracks. We can change the way we want to go, how fast, and where it goes to. There is one thing that can't be stopped, no matter how far, which way, or how fast...all train's tracks has an end. We always go throw life but we do not see what we do not want to see. We go fast when we should take things slow, we go one way when we know we should have gone the other, and we try to set our path the way we want with out seeing the path is un shore. So from the moment we come into this world, to the moment we hit our dead end we will always be changing and moving and living our life. Like trains we move on with power, like trains we are strong, and like train we keep pushing forward. The only thing that is set in stone and the only truth for us that we may all know, is while a train is all these thing and maybe more, even a train like us brakes down and dies.

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On second thought

Let me hold on to your heart, and I’ll keep it forever. tell me your secrets and no one will ever hear them. Give me a soul, cause sometimes....I think that I'm a demon. On second thought keep your heart to yourself 'cause I'll probably want to eat it. Keep your secrets to yourself unless you want every one to know them. Give me no souls or I might get hungry for more....Tell me this is what you see everyday, 'cause it's all different when I'm looking for my dinner. I see myself in a mirror and what is in the reflection looks so evil. Show me this is not your fear, it may become your worst horror. I Wish you would run from me, 'cause I might be a demon hungry for your blood. On second thought what is in the mirror is not that bad, I can even get use to it in fact. I hope that this is not your horror, otherwise you'd be getting a feeling of true terror. On second thought I now think you should stay right here, 'cause I'm getting hungry for something to eat, and think you would make a good treat for me to eat.

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Kill me

(idk why I wrote this, I think it was when I had an issue in life...)
I sometimes think that I am not worth it to be here, so can you kill me and end it all? Let me bleed out and die in the arms of you, the one I love. Kill me now, kill me fast, kill me so no one any longer has to see me and be in pain. I don't want this I just want death to come, kill me now. Just do it fast and get it over with. Please end my life, and free other people from the sight of me. Kill me....kill me and end all others' pain. I would find it best for others and myself, if I just go away. Kill me, kill me, kill me, kill me......Please kill me.

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Hanging Tree

(for my friend with schizophrenia, he had a crush but I hope the poem is a lie)
Hanging tree, wont you please come with me? We'll walk hand in hand up to the hanging tree on top of the hill, and we'll put the ropes that hang from the tree around our necks. Hanging tree it's the very last place we will kiss each other. Hanging tree, you and I together hand in hand. We will move together so the ropes will close around our necks. I love you so, and I know you love me, but now we're both dead hand in hand, yet we still love each other. Two souls together who both will wonder forever in love, a endless afterlife. Hand in hand under the hanging tree we will be together, forever.

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He Was.

(A poem in honor of a friend))
He was the kind of guy who always made people smile, He was the kind of guy who thought of others before himself. He knew when his love was sad, and he knew that just being there for her was a big help, he was a good guy, sweet and kind. He was always willing to lend a hand, he was anything but selfish, and he was always looking for ways to make people happy. He loved cats, and was a big romantic. He also loved to listen to Metal, he loved to listen to rock, but he was still as nice as anyone. He was a person who never got mad, he was the kind to give his life for those he loved. He was strong. He was brave. He was nice. And he will be missed always...

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Blood

((Written for my creepy friend.)))
I love that red liquid, that flows in our veins, the way it feels as spills on my clothes is like the joy from a new toy. Blood is my favorite toy, the many game that can be played with it are all so fun. The games that I play could make others numb with fear. I love blood and I love it on a knife, it's just so fun to take from anyone with a beating heart and pulse. Blood is my favorite color, and blood is my favorite thing, it just taste more salty then it does sweet. I have fun playing with blood, and I think you should too. Seeing as the blood I'm playing with came from you.

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Inhuman

(something personal)
What you are is not a friend to me. The things you do is only to hurt me. Words you use to talk to me can only make me feel bad. All the lies you tell me can only make my life worse. You are not a person at all, you are inhuman. You put down the very people you should love to make yourself fell better. I will not stand for this because I am strong. You are inhuman and the world will soon see that. You will be allow, and you will know that I am free. Inhuman, cold, evil, and no heart at all reads you out perfectly. I am all person, I live, I survive, and I have my humanity. You are inhuman, and you will die that way, while I will live on happy.

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Just lie to me (song)

(this always happens to me, so why not write it out....)
Why don't you just look me in my eyes. Why do you do this, making me wanna cry. Oh can't you just do me one thing....Look me in my face and ~just lie to me~, tell me you love me and tell me you care about me, but please look me in the eyes. ~just lie to me~ I laugh but only because I can see it, you don't want to be here with me, and what I want is to die. Help you and I both, say what you know I want to hear, look me in my eyes ~just lie to me~ tell me the things that I want to here, and to make you feel any better, then just kill me so this can be over. You hold my hand, but you hate my touch, you kiss my lips but you think of someone else. So forget the whole story to tell me the true, don't do what's a waste of time, ~just lie to me~ oh that's what I want from you ~just lie to me~ tell me the things that make me feel happy. Tell me you love me, and tell me you want just me. Kiss me on my lips and ~just lie to me~ ~just lie to me~ Yes that is what I want you to do, tell me you want me, tell me you love me when you hate me, be my love when you think it's not going to work out. Look at me and tell me you do not want me to die. Yes that is my wish, just look me in the eyes and ~just lie to me~ ~just lie to me~ ~just lie to me~....

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Lost Souls

I sing la la la song to the lost souls, and those who don't know.
I sing the song of the fallen angel, those who have lost their soul.
A song to those who have made it so far, just to have a further fall.
I sometimes pity the fallen angel, the ones who lost their souls.
I know that this is a dark world, and with these poor souls, I sob
for it to end, I feel as if I want to cut it all out, la la la the song
to the lost souls. So sad the fallen angels will soon be dead,
and they will take one of us down with them, after going up so
high there is only one way left. Down down down I will be taken
to burn in pain if I don't stop the hatred I have, if I rest in Pease
or not I sing la la la song to the lost souls....

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We are human.

It is here on Earth that we were born, to learn, grow, and prosper.
We are the only animal on Earth that are the most unique.
We are human, we love, we hope, and we reason.
The human life is basted on these fake truths that money is love, but love comes from within.
We are human, proud, strong, smart, and truly unique.
We are human, we can hope, we can reason,
but the greatest we can do as human kind ....is that we can love.

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Love & Truth

Sometimes I find that love hurts me. The truth is love really hurts me when I want to show it on my body. Even if it seems to be wrong, the pain is what I love to feel. We love all the time, we are human, it is what we do as the human raise. But next time you love someone, and they love you back. Even if you show the love on your own body, and even if you find it odd that someone really does love you. Hold that love close forever, no matter what it takes.

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Emotions

(wrote this during a personal time)
Tell me what we all know, let's all show no emotion to those we don't know, or do know. Emotions are the feelings that we hide inside, they are what we show in our lifetime. If I am sad I will cry and warm water will spill from my eyes. When I know I am angry I will want no one close to me, I'll push them to the side and leave. So when I am in love what is the emotion going to show on my body. Let it be love that I feel and let me learn what it is, so I can hide that emotion inside me too the next time I have it.

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Write

We are here, in the stages of our life, we are told so many things. If we are too young, too old, smart or not smart at all. Time passes, time dies, emotions become nothing in the hearts of some. Learn, love, hope and dream. Keep emotions alive, keep stories written, and let them both come together with your own ideas using your pen and paper.

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Time

We are but nothing to the world, man kind is just another feeble effort to be something to the cosmos, looking at people, going though life, not knowing how small they really are. They, we, everyone, all of us at some point go though life to try and be something in this empty world. Going into life, with the idea we mean something, when in the end we are the same as a grain of sand, we're here, we take up space, we are passed by, but not worth a thing. There are just two things 100% shore about life and the life of others, it's that we are born and that we will all die. People act like they can't see it, they laugh, love...hope, but it falls to nothing. 7 is the memory of our past, 6 is the reminder of ourselves 5 is the ideas we make ourselves, 4 is the way we take on our life, 3 is seeing time is almost done, 2 is the fear as we come close to death, and 1 is when our time is up, and we hope we have no regret. Humans......just another moment in time.....and like all time.....soon it will run out......

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Let me go

Tellin' me of memories. Tellin' me of anythin'. I sing and I cry. I write an I feel pain. Stories of tears and stories of pain, the song of my past an all the things that hurt me in my heart. Memories, memories, memories, these are the things that hurt me, I talk about anything other then memories, it fills, spills, and cuts my memory out. When I sing I cry 'cause it hurts me inside to make me think of memories. Just stop the memories, just stop my pain an' I'll stop my singin'. I don't want to hurt anymore, an' I don't want to cry another tear. So let me stop my singing, let me stop my remeberin', an' please, just please let me go on.....

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Love blues

(this was by a friend and I, we were bored)
I know that you care about me. and I know that you and I know you just want to be with me. but I’ve a been walking around thinking bout you and I got to tell you I been thinking how we goin' work ourselves out ands right now id say I’ve got the relationship blues. you me, I with you walking down down you hold my hand i hold yours too. You love and you love and you love me but you loving is like a noose and your loving me to death. you know that we love each other but now that its all said and done, its like kind of seems like our love is going to kill death. I’ve got the relationship blues, I don’t know what I have to lose, you love me so much but I’m kind of like blind to this love. your there I’m there we talk, and we laugh, and we kiss, and we make love. but I’ve got the relation ship blues, you mean a lot to me but I don’t see this though my collars of blue. I don’t want to hurt, I don’t want to cry, I know I love you baby but this song is only half of my news. I’ve got the relation ship blues, yes I do, the relation ship blues, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you so, I’m getting rid of my relation ship blues, yes they goin’ be gone, gone, gone they going out the door. I’m going love you like that love you give me, I’m going to love you with my heart, love you tell Death takes us apart baby, ohhh I’m getting these relation ship blues and I’m sweeping them out that door, ohhh yea, they going out that door. they not going to bug me no more, no more, no no no more~

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Love is Love

Stars are shinning and stars are twinkling and the stars are dancing in your eyes. Your skin so soft like silk but it's warm to the very touch. Love is love yes this is true, and it's clear to me that I love you. Your hair is a wondrous thick main that smells of heaven were you are from. Your lips sweet like sugar and a taste of lust. Love is love yes this is true, and it's clear to me that I love you . You are perfect in each and every way, and I love you is all I have left to say. You are an angel from heaven now on earth, and you have my heart all to yourself. Love is love yes this is true, and it's clear to me that I love you. So when it's all said and done you are all mine, so I have one thing to ask you I'd like to know will you be all mine?

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A Love

Love is a lover lost forever in a sea of stars, and a lover is someone that holds the key to your heart, when the two come together as one, you have a lover to love that can live with you in the sea of stars forever. They will stay by your side, they will be our true love forever, a love is someone you can count on always and forever. They will keep you heart's key, they will keep it safe, a love is someone that will never betray your faith. In the sea of stars forever, will you and your lover stay for always.

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Real?

What I see, what I feel, things I learn about, is it real? You can never know if your life is real. Go into a state of mine that may not be real, learn these things are not there or may just be in your mind, I don't know what this means or even if it really is happening, do you have any idea what is truth? What is real? Real is what you may or may not believe, but does this mean if you don't believe in me I am not real? Or if you don't believe in yourself you are not really here? What is real?

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``` Inside```

(I foregot why I wrote this, or who for)
Every time I feel its all about me. when ever I feel the world is against me. If I feel like I'm about to die. I remember your the one keeping me alive. It's that one around me. It's the one I will give my everything. my heart, soul, and dreams that live inside me. if you tried you can stop my heart beat. I'll take your love It'll flow around me. no matter how hard you try you can’t deny me. I'll be your one and only, a true love someday, but you should know one thing... ~I'm dieing inside, my mind is going blank, and my blood is at a boil, and for you it only means trouble.~ it means if you wanna be with me a true love of mine the you gatta know what’s in store. Goin' though life at fast past there is one thing I can't take, it's the day I find my heart will brake. They call me what they wish a fake, a waste, or a pain, and all I can say is to the end I wont bend or brake, but the one thing about this is that no matter how we try we can't escape... ~I’m dieing inside my mind is going blank and my blood is at a boil and for you it only means trouble.~ So we'll try this again and again and you know what? in the end I'm glad that we met, that we laughed, we talked, but most of all.... I'm very happy that you never left me. I should know how mush I owe you, so I'm tellin' you this...thank you and I will always love you....

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New Love

Wishes of death and sweet kisses of heaven, tick tock goes the clock on the wall, and boom boom goes the hum of my broken heart when I'm with you. You know what I've gone through, and your the one fixing my heart. You hold me like a love should no matter what. If things can work out between you and me then I can tell you that there will be nothing but love to come. I hope you and me stay strong, I hope you and I have forever, I hope I can hold you for years and years, cause you are the one thing that keeps me happy.

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Every word

With every little thing you say, with each word that come out of your sweet angel lips,
it sooths me, it moves me, it is those words that’s make me grin with glee,
whenever those words are that you love me. Heaven must be missing an angel because you are nothing less then perfect.
with each word that come out of your sweet angel lips, it sooths me, it moves me, it makes me want to believe in love again.
Angel we both had our hearts broken, we both had out bad relationships, but i know that now I'm happy, cause now I have you,
so i know things will be alright. with each day that I have with you it sooths me, it makes me happy because with each day i have with you, it brings me closer to true love with an angel.