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- Created By bloody madi
song of the month
Inside this huge star,
for some reason we met each other.
you're looking up at the sky, aren't you?
Its like going beyond thousands of hours.
today we learned One melody.
we'll be deep in the heart, maybe...
I'll shine a light on you.
make your happiness.
I'll put the constellations in a lamp.
and then i wanna deliver it to you.
let's be together forever.
i wanna believe in our future.
'cause you're not alone!
we'll wrap our arms around you.
let us protect you.
just the way you are.
let your heart ring out.
with the score that is yout name
for you, the best bouquet in the world.
the map points to tomorrow ... Dyed in seven colors...http:/http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EbYDZlu69Fk&list=FLcymClav67mT_ncdSADaUuQ&index=12&feature=plpp_video
nightmare
idk if i should just forgive him or still be mad.... its not even funny to me.. bc its my worst fear that would happen... getting told sweet words about being together and about love... and seeing it all get stabbed with a knife in to them..
just reading those words realized my fear .. being betrayed by some one i love again hurts so much...
then telling me it was all a joke , yeah he should realize that its not funny to me bc i can see him doing that since its my fear.
he could have told me oh haha jk on the status but really? how am i supiose to know this?! uhg after i read it i could talk , read it again i started crying badly... how am i supose to feel after saying its a joke?! uh?! im mad and i feel ashamed of my fear and how u think i should justgo along with it.
damn it .. cant stop crying ..
osami san video
just getting watching that one part... makes me remember those days back then... why i am who i am... its sad and pathatic it makes me wanna puke...
so far thats all i got to say .. it just brought back memories in a rush that having these feeling or not trusting someone is terriable and then i realize that i still dont not even my bf... or my friends.. even the one who knows my dark secrets.. but she does realize what i wented to do back then to end the pain...
senior year
So this senior year hasbeen going welll... Have a great boyfriend, great friends and got into the college of my dream! But new drama came out durin our ski trip which was okay besides the dramam with an ex friend of ours... I'm really just tired of high school drama... Why do ppl start things cuz their bored .... ? I mean seriously ... Why can things be calm and peaceful like in shows ... Like lucky star... But that's reality ... It sucks... Oh well ... Guess u have to deal with it .
