wat do i do now?

College is coming near for me only 2 years away.... but i been interesting in baking sweets like cakes,pies,cupcakes,etc. But... ever since i been trying to learn at home... my sister who's a juinor in college and getting her degree in speech thyp. All of sudden started to bake too... i been looking into going to Le Cordon Bleu for college but now.. now i don't know .. it use to be that i would bake all the time but not when i go into the kitchen i see her baking things i have not even try...

Before all this i even wanted to go into speech thyp, before my sister even thought of it... but she changed her mind an decided to do it.. i hate how people compare us so much that i just want to do something different from the family and her... but now that she into baking , i don't know that to do now... i lost to ability to bake because she is always doing it.. its not special as wat it was to me.. i thought i would be the only one to do this....

I don't know really.. i don't know what else to do with my life... do i still go to that college i been looking into ?? Or pick another thing..but i don't know what other thing to do...

i mean i love her , yes, but i just want something to be something im good at... something i can create with my hands to make people smile as they eat my creations.

I feel like a piece has been ripped out of me... I don't know wat to do .. i cant tell her to stop baking.. that would be selfish of me, right? and i would sound like a little kid who wants a toy to her or his self....

I don't Know...?

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