idk if i should just forgive him or still be mad.... its not even funny to me.. bc its my worst fear that would happen... getting told sweet words about being together and about love... and seeing it all get stabbed with a knife in to them.. just reading those words realized my fear .. being betrayed by some one i love again hurts so much...
then telling me it was all a joke , yeah he should realize that its not funny to me bc i can see him doing that since its my fear.

he could have told me oh haha jk on the status but really? how am i supiose to know this?! uhg after i read it i could talk , read it again i started crying badly... how am i supose to feel after saying its a joke?! uh?! im mad and i feel ashamed of my fear and how u think i should justgo along with it.

damn it .. cant stop crying ..