Well... here I am again.... writing my emotions anbyd feelis out again about my relationship.... but there's not one I can really talk to... not friends nor family about these things... my bf would just get mad at what I say like always.
This time its about priority. ... I know we joke arpumd about it but I feel like I'm second
. Like yeah ur busy eith family and school... but when it comes to us... I feel like I'm second to things. Games and stuff... I mean. Reslly balmimg the internet about mot sending me a message foe that longor... I send u something amd I see u see it amd u don't reply for the longest time... or qhen i sent u a message and u dont read it for a long time but ur on fb.. like wtf?! Then u get my hopes up about tge weekend bc we didnt get to hang out for our 2 years.... but I know u... I know deep down we xan bx of something.. and whwn I ask for alone time just a day fir us u go and invite our friends .. like yeah I haven't seen them but I haven't seen u either....
It hurts... a lot... but I deal with it... amd I know if I told him he would get mad and defesive about he does put me first but then how come I feel like Im not? I still can't say tjings bc I know ur gonna get like that and then no matter what we will fight and make me feel likean ass hole gf.... when I'm just trying to be honest like u tell me too.... sigh...
I love him I do but sometimes I feel like I'm behind him... like I'm just here... u say u love me .. nut why do I feel so empty...