*I step in front of the train waiting for it to make its move on me I drop my pants and take my shirt off. I charge at itin my boxers and wait for it to obliterate me. I realize instantly the train is not there, as I crash against my wall. I goout side to see all the faces, shinigami, Quincys and Arrancars pass me. I can hear them talking about me, they're all plotting
my destruction. No one is on my side.The voices in my head call for justice wile the voices in my heart cries for love.
I go back into my house and the floor turns to a river of grape kool aid as my friends from my dreams help me not drowned. I hear the
voices again. Don't do this Daniel, we love you Daniel. I talk to my self in public places now, the voices keep company.
I hear them in my sleep, I hear them when I eat. Voices so many voices. I talk to them in my sleep. They tell me the angels on
the moon are a lie and the cake is what I make it. Maybe I should just fake it, tell the world I'm OK but really I'm not.
I hear the voices tell me I'm safe, that they love me. So many voices Ive given them all names. I hear them tell stay up have fun.
Hang with your friends they love you. I see people that aren't there, I feel things that aren't real. Hours and hours go by
and all I hear are the voices. Maybe I've lost my mind. Or maybe you all don't exist out side of my head. I see you all but
are you there? Who am I who are you? I don't known I am, so don't ask me again. I dance around my sombrero in my boxers to the tune of
my mind break.They come get me, those bastards in the white coats. Tie me up and toss me in a room. I keep hearing you care about
my happiness. I count flowers on the wall and play salutary with a deck of 48 cards. Come on in my room, lets play with my
imaginary friends, they wont bite you like they say I should you. I love you Jimmy. Maybe when I get out of here and go get ice
cream and feed peanuts to my pet rabbits that died 5 years ago. Twinkle twinkle little star I don't care just how far, I have to
go away just to have a happy day. Twinkle twinkle little star you will never know just how far.I know the answer, Ill just end
end it all. I go into my kitchen and put a it to my head and squeeze the bottle of jelly. I feel the cold jelly run
down my face as I laugh my butt off and pass out with a bad head ache.I wake up the next day with my family
surrounding my bed, Rukia is at my side holding my hand telling me it will be OK.Jan Ashley and Manny are huddled together crying
while Dale and Ambika hold still and look at me with solemn but loving eyes.Ambika slaps the bed and says "Get up brother its
Christmas, lets go get our presents" I get up and put a dress on and run down stairs to see my whole family sitting around a table
holding pieces of paper and Dr Phil stands in the middle saying "Let me help you help you help me to help you." I toss him a
twinky and walk out onto the beach where Rangiku is standing in the sun in a string bikini. I walk up to her and ask her if
she minds eating the rest of my pop tart while I go out into the ocean to fist fight Captain Caveman while you pick a fight with a care bear. I walk to the ocean and barf
up a kitten and light up a tootsie roll and smoke it. I walk over and see Yoruichi playing chess and I walk over too her. I sit down
and the men get off the board and she slides me two pills, one that mother gave me and the other to make me larger. But the one I took
didn't do anything at all. I get up and kiss her eyes and walk away *