I'm in pain. I have been in such for about a month now. I have been sick, barely able to eat. Forcing myself to eat when I deem it is time to bare the pain that comes with it. Nausea taking over every ounce of my being. It is so tiring. I am so tired. Just so tired. It takes so much out of me to eat. Then I don't want to eat, because when I do eat I am tired. I'm dehydrated, and I'm losing weight pretty fast. My side has become a constant pain, though now there is a pain in my back too. I think the pain in my back is from stress. That happens with me sometimes. Still the pain in my side is horrible. It feels like a knife ripping through me. It just keeps getting worse too.
I went to the doctors yesterday. That was a waste of time. The doctor tried saying that the reason I was experiencing this pain in my side, which by the way is in the general direction of my appendix or my gallbladder is due to a strained muscle in my back. I've had pulled muscles before. I know what they feel like, and though the muscles in my back do feel sore, this pain in my side is not from a muscle in my back. You don't get intense pain in your stomach from a muscle. Nor is the reason I am nauseous due to heartburn. That's right, she gave me heartburn medicine for nausea.
I've lost over 30 pounds, and this woman is trying to tell me I need to lose more weight. She talked to me like I was stupid. I told her it hurt for me to eat and that because it hurt I wasn't eating. Therefore, by human instincts I force myself to eat so that I can thrive. The genus tells me, "There is no reason to force yourself. If you don't feel like eating, don't eat." How stupid can you be? I mean, if someone comes to you and tells you that they can't eat, you don't tell them "don't eat." You try to find out why they can't eat, and why they're nauseous, and why they're freaking feeling like crap. I've had a rough couple days with my health. This just seemed to peeve me. They did do some tests to make sure it wasn't my appendix, but that doesn't rule out other possibilities. Honestly, it ticks me off.
Another thing, she at first tried blaming my pain in my side on my stupid cyst again. I hate it. Every time you go to the doctor or you get sick they look at your past records and say, "Oh, you have a cyst? That must be what it is." Everything is not a freaking ovarian cyst. I'm really pissed off about this. Not to mention, every since yesterday my pain in my side has been increasing. I know what a pulled muscle feels like. This is not a pulled muscle. I don't know what else I'm supposed to do though. She put me on a bland diet. A whole hell of a lot of good that does me, when I can't eat!I really don't know what to do. Maybe if it's no better soon, I'll go to the hospital. There's not much else I can do. I'm hurting so bad that it's hard for me to fall asleep, then when I do fall asleep I'm so tired I sleep for hours. Not to mention that forcing myself to eat makes me feel even weaker and more tired. I just don't know what to do.
