so recently I relized with the help of some friends, that my wallpapers suck and I was also told that photoshop may not be my thing and I should find something else to do. As I was doing a new type of graphic, one that I've never done before and completely different than the rest of my wallpapers I've done, my mom makes me go to bed so she can sleep in the living room. The next day I go to work on it and my COMPUTER IS FUCKED UP! THE WHOLE STUDY OF WOMBO GONE! Needless to say I was pissed and I'm the onlyone that knows anything about computers so they have me to TRY and fix it. so while I was up late at night trying to do what I could (wasn't much) I end kup going to bed and this morning I found out that my mom called a friend who does this shit for a living to come over and fix it. THANKS FOR LETTING ME KNOW MOM! Now I did all that work for nothing. All I have to do now is wait till freaking friday morning when he comes over to work on the image.

Back to the freaking point. ><

It did hurt to be told that I suck at graphics but I needed it. I always look at other works on here or in magazines and I see how amazing their stuff is and I always wish that mine could be as good as theirs. I do photoshop all the time but I just end up making shit work and I put it into a folder and never look at it again or I just delete it. I always said that the quality of wallpapers on here has gone down, now I realize that I should get off my high horse thinking I'm better than everyone when I really am not or wasn't, and that I wasn't helping the quality of this site either.
The only time I did something different is when someone requested a wallpaper from me. You can tell that all my shit stuff looks all the same. But I'm taking this as a building block to try harder and to create better work.
I was also told that this website was holding me back doing only anime so I'm not doing anime anymore. I don't really know if I should take a break from here for a while or just leave all together but I really need to just get better and find some new things to do.

Ugh I wanna rant about other stuff but I dont feel like typing it all ><