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2k15
wow we made it to 2k15. You'd think I would make a post such as this on New Year's Day, but no. I don't think I'll be online then. Maybe cuz I;ll be lazy.
Anyway, you know how 2k14 was supposed to be the year where everything changed for the better? Well, it didn't quite work out as we all planned (from what I gather, and considering the recent events, that much is pretty clear anyway...), and now we're hoping 2015 is the lucky number.
I'm personally not looking forward to the new year. Not that I wanna stay in this year, but I'm just so nervous. I was nervous last year obvi (i don't like change all that much and a lot of changes were going on around then) but now I'm REALLY nervous. My anxiety is really high and it's not going to get better within the next few weeks, I know for fact.
Um, anyways, the olnly I can say is that I suppose I'm excited because it's a "fresh start" of some sort and I need a good bath, but that's about it. I'm worried. I can't even pin-point why I am. I just feel like shit's gonna hit the fan (ceiling, radiator, wall, and freshly shined shoes) some time. I'm having an ongoing internal struggle and I think most people would tell me to resolve it for the new year.
I hope it all goes well. I have midterms in about 3 weeks and I'm extremely unprepared. If I don't learn a pretty hard passage for orch. in the next 5 days, I'm screwed. My teacher always says, "if you can play it slowly, you can play it fast," which is not true at all. I can play something perfectly slowly... but if i bump the speed up it gets worse and worse. I practice all the time. I feel like giving up a lot but im like what's the point in that i already made it this far might as well...
Anyway... 2015 better be good or else.
P.S. that was a threat to myself :-)
rambles
Next week is thanksgiving break. Im excited - for the break and food part, that is. Before the weekend can arrive, however, I must get through the unfortunate responsibility that is school. -_- There's a written test tomorrow for my orchestra class for the flats (i totally bombed the others) and then an assessment the next day for it where we have to play a section of our music at random. We're not allowed to know what it is beforehand, so im really worried. I know I'll probably get a section that im really bad at even with lots of practice.
That same day there's a big test in math. That sucks cuz i suck at math. like really bad. haven't passed a test yet.
I have a test for language, but I do fairly well in that class!! I pass all tests and quizzes (so far). It's getting easier for me this year for some reason O_O
After all that boring stuff we're off!! The first day of break I will be doing my hair! I cannot wait to get it done. I've had braids for a while and I love them. I just wanna see my actual hair for a second lmaao!
Hopefully I can start gaining some muscle in the next two weeks @_@ need to be fit for wintercon ^__^
stuff
so i got a used laptop
im going to borrow my friend's idea and label it "craptop"
i cant go to many sites
like that certain dark blue, micro-blogging website you all know and love.
It's not that bad i suppose
beggars cant be choosers amirite?
idk. i dont want to be ungrateful but there are other things wrong here 2...
too much 2 name.
So, goodnight. I will be dreainmng of the upcoming break.
In other, quick news, I'm going to wintercon with my friend!! And before that, we;re going out to grab a bite together on the saturday of the break! It'll be great. Her birthday's tomorrow, so I'll be drawing her up a little picture. Hopefully she will like it :)
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i might stop drawing for a while maybe. I know it's already happening, with me uploading something every 6 months - 1 yearbut like.... im so ffrustrated
I don't improve as wuickly as i want to and i make the same mistakes every time i go to draw on paper. My "style" has been the same as it was since about a year ago when i changed it. I want to be simple bbut in a cooler way. u feel
so yeah. To save myself the mistery and blood and tears, i will at least stick to sketches..... not like i habvebt been uploading sketchy work BUT i mean....................................... messier stuff ("It gets worse?!").
yeah. I hate drawing digitally rn.... that is the only way to upload things nowadays. It's so ew... but i suppose it's just a thot right now. nothing official or anything.
That's eveb w music. I was thinking about quitting beccause I can't get anytihgn right. I'll be at home practicing for about an hour and a half going over the same thigns w out any improvement in it. And forget about music theory...... the teacher makes us do that now. I dont even want to see my grades for those music theory tests. They're so gross.
But who knows. Tomorrow I could be so pumped to do things, y'know?! maybe i will draw right now.
**Just kidding, I'm gonna play the Sims now lmfao
still tired
and today's sunday. im so tired sitll tired so stress ed tired
In other news................................. jk there is no other news. I just like to fill up my mini blog with posts! :3
