Nana, i love you so so so so much. I never wanted this day to come, but i know that everyone leaves this earth at some point. I know that you will move on to a better, more peaceful place, and thats what helps me to cope with this. You deserve to not be in pain any more. You are a wonderful person, and you have done so much good with you're life. Not only did you choose my father to adopt as your son when he was just a baby, but you gave him, and us more love than anyone could have ever given. You raised countless foster children along with your son into great, respectable adults, and you gave each one more love than i think is even possible. You have always been so kind and generous, and have offered things to people who need help, when you didn't even have the things that you needed yourself. You are one of the most kind and generous people i will ever meet. Even when you had to pay thousads of dollars a month for medicine, you still insisted on paying for dinner when we came down to visit you. You always welcomed us with warm hugs and presents and would always say "i wish i could give you more" even though the only thing we wanted was to see your beautiful face and love you as much as you have loved us. You are the most wonderful kind and generous person, and i am so glad to be your grand daughter. You will always have a special place in my heart, and i will always be proud to call you my Nana.
Love, your grandaughter and biggest fan, Paige

For anyone who is reading this, my Nana has had health problems since she was a baby, and the past couple months have been really rough on her. She has had multiple blood clots, liver sclerosis(not from drinking), and kidney failure that had her put on dialysis. She died for a brief moment this morning,.and they managed to resuscitate her, but she is in a coma and they won't resuscitate her again, they do not believe she will make it for more than a day. I am all the way in NorthCarolina and she is in Pennsylvania, and i don't think i will make it to she her before she passes. The only way i could think to express my sadness was to write to her. I got half way through the letter and realized that the heavyness from my heart was starting to lift a bit, but now its back and im not sure why. This is the first death of a family memeber that I've ever experience, and im not sure how to cope...but i guess it would be a little weird if i did know...

Thanks for reading if you got this far, i really appreciate it. Bye guys.