I finally broke and went and found an Avatar icon from Google. I've been putting it off well... mostly because I've been to lazy to go hunt one down.

To add to this completely pointless post, an old friend of mine contacted me today. We had been best friends since we were twelve until I had a falling out with my mom and moved to my dads. about a year after that she contacted me and invited me on a camping trip with her family. I was so excited to finally see her and her family, all of whom had been like a second family to me for so many years, and I ended up paying the price for all that excitement :T her brother, who I was also really good friends with would barely even look at me let alone talk to me, which hurt, and I ended up finding out why too. My mom had been talking major crap about me to everyone. Now I expected this, but it's one of those things where it isn't great to be right, I think the worst part though, aside from her talking crap was that I expected it... :T anyway, after that I didn't talk to my friend for a long while, well actually tonight was really the first time I talked to her since last summer. It really sucks that things ended up this way. She wants me to come visit, but to be honest I'm scared to go because I don't want what happened last time to happen again, but at the same time I really miss her and all the good times we had. But I know she's changed, and although I don't feel like I've changed, I also feel like it seems like I've changed... Really confusing, I know, and depressing... just thinking about it sucks :T

So anyway! I'm gonna try to cheer up and maybe I'll go visit her, at least go hang out for a couple hours, and hopefully I can just meet her somewhere and avoid the rest of her family, at least for now. I really don't want any awkwardness and the only way to avoid that is to ease back in rather than jump... even though I prefer jumping haha.