I really appreciate all your help and comments and stuff ;w; <3 .. it's a hard thing to get over.. it's so annoying but at the same time it's become my life style which isnt good ;. ;

i was on medication for a few years.. and i went off of it late november.. and i was doing well for the rest of november,december, and january.. and then in february things just got bad @_@ i'm debating if i should go back on it or not... i don't want to because of all of the side effects and how it may not be healthy.. but if it helps me eat and function.. then idk.. its such a hard choice... i want to see if i can do it without medication.. it's so confusing i dont know which to choose... if i go to a shrink they'll automatically tell me to go back on meds... so idk what to do.. my parents are pro meds, my boyfriend and his family are against meds... i'm torn between them being both good and bad so idk what to do at the moment @___@;;;

things were a little better with food today... so maybe today was a good day : 3

i'll post more tomorrow about what i did today... but i just wanted to thank everyone for the comments ;w;