Hey guys,
I'm actually not in the mood to explain why I havent posted but something else happened that I'd rather discuss.
I was woken up around 7:30 am yesterday and my mom was like Rachel, Poppy *my grandpa* isnt doing well, the hospital said we should come now. this might be it.
So we all rushed as quickly as we could to get ready and such and we left the house at 7:45 and then we got there around 8 am. Before you go into the room you have to wash your hands and put on gloves. something about germs and bacteria and stuff. Adults dont need it for some reason only children do *no clue why* so my parents go in first while my brother and i are putting on our gloves.
As I go in I, I dont see any of the machines that were hooked up to him the last time i saw him and he wasnt curled into a ball with a breathing mask around his mouth. He as layoung completely straight with the blanket over him up to his chin and his mouth was wide open and his head was bak. I look at my mom, my dad's arm around her and she was crying. Unless you've experienced it before, seeing someone dead is probably one of the most disturbing and yet peaceful things ever. It doesnt look natural but at the same time it looks like they're sleeping.
Before I knew it i started crying to. They didnt officially tell us that he was dead. i knew he was dead. They said 15 minutes ago he was breathing shallow. One of the nurses came in and she took his pulse, she didnt say anything to us and she walked out. Then the doctor came in and asked us to leave the room for a second. he was in there with a bunch of nurses and stuff. I was hugging my mom outside. After around a minute he came bak outside and told us that he was in fact dead and that he was sorry for our loss.
They told us he was breathing very shallow when we came in, but i dont think that he was.... one of the nurses said that he straightened out his whole body right before he died. like he knew he was going to die or something... but i think we got there right before he passed.
i felt exhausted.. i think i was crying for 3 hours straight. . . later that day i went to my grandma's house to sleep over she wanted company and didnt want to feel lonely. so i slept in the same bed as her and she told me more about my grandpa and how they met and everything. so i was just listening to her talk and such. . she was making me cry X'D
the funeral is going to be held tomorrow and then we're sitting shiva all week... so lots of people are going to be coming over every day D8... *have to keep my room clean >>;;*
i still dont even know if i'm gonna say something at the service tomorrow... i duno what to say. i might stick something in the coffin but i duno yet...
so yea... just wanted to say that XD sorry you guys had to read that whole thing... OH brighter side..
i won the valentines day contest ^^ i duno what exactly i'd get yet... but i'm really happy i won X3 so thank you adam ^^ and the judge ^^
have a great day guys
~Rachel
