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Smilla has returned! 
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It's kinda stoopid that not eating/craving candy for almost 2 weeks bothers me. Seriously. Sigh. If anything I should be happy and boasting to everyone about this unheard of development. Eh?
Ran into a good friend of mine while collecting my drugs medication at the pharmacy and was [again] reminded of how much I'd love to hang out with her but just haven't the energy/drive to make it happen. Even writing a short note to my eldest sister (who's in NY at the moment) takes me several days to get around to. And I'm overridden with guilt from not being a good pen-pal to my Aussie boy toy :( Usually these periods pass at some point but this one is clinging onto me as pathetically as I cling onto... err, whatever. At first I blamed the heat wave for knocking me out. Dunno what to pin it on now.
Smilla the cat has been missing for a week or so. The silly thing really need to get her act together and go back home to my elder sister, who's worried sick, hopefully before said sister goes to visit the eldest one in NY. It'll be kinda hard for her to enjoy the trip without knowing for certain where her baby is :(
Mom kinda broke down badly a couple o' days ago. Bastard Aunt needs to be put in her place or in a mental ward for messing things up. Grandma had been taken into hospital for some check ups but no one bothered to inform mom of this and so she, understandably, got real worried when she was unable to reach the old lady for over a week NOR would Bastard Aunt respond to any calls/texts. It was only after I suggested mom call the niece that we were clued in. Their horrible, twisted, and benign behavior has always been a fixture in mom's life and I hate that. If only she could've had a mom who'd been as great a mom to her as mom has been to me. If only.
But fear not! I do not allow them to have any further impact on my life and will keep on fighting to pull off the noose they've placed on mom. They should be so lucky they don't know the me I am today or else they'd [insert ending line here].
With a steadfast spirit and a potent heart I protect those I love!
Timing is everything
So it's once again a little too late for me to focus on writing a proper post so I'll throw some bullets on the wall and expand on them at a later date!
- The Dog Whisperer
Man, watching that show makes me ache for a dog of my own ;_; I'd obviously be the perfect mommy because I'd know what to do/not to do >.> - Heroes
Booyah, the first season was INTENSE! Finally got around to buying/watching that show! It really should've been done sooner but there you go *drools* Hey Slick, was it the second season that suffered from that strike? - My eldest sister /is going to/has moved. She's sold her apartment and is living temporarily at our place. And it is very temporary. One day she's here, the next she's off for a week visiting someone/whatever. The reason for this confusing living accommodation is because she's geared up to head on over to NY for 3 months and then go live in Gothenburg when she gets back from that trip. So instead of wasting money on paying rent for an apartment during her travels we offered up the spare bedroom for her (and a lot of storage space for some of her stuff....).
One day we had a conversation about how I'm doing, now and in the past (because she feels that she wasn't paying enough attention to anyone, really, before) which enabled me to come up with a fitting imagery for how my mental state is at the moment: Picture getting into a car and closing the door. That's where I'm at. Not checking the rear view mirror, adjusting the seat, putting the keys in the ignition, none of that. Just sitting in the car, hands in/on (?) my lap. Yeah, lol.
- My room is getting comfortably cool, just in time for turning in (whether or not I'll actually go to bed is a different matter, though >.>) so this shall be the end of this post!
<3
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So I need to log on/in here more often! Maybe it'll help me get over this lethargic slump quicker :o .... Though trying to make a post after midnight when you're dead tired isn't the best time to start >.>
Quick thought: I had this awesome dream where James and I went on an adventure in a gondola-like hot-air balloon!! We narrowly scraped through this passage in a mountain and explored an ancient ruin and loads of other fun stuff. I woke up with a grin :)
I love you all so dearly and words will always fail me in expressing just how much <3
I'm Afraid of 18 Out of 72 Common Fears
[ ] the dark
[X] staying single forever
[X] being a parent
[X] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[X] closed spaces
[X] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[X] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[X] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[X] the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriend's/girlfriend's dad
[ ] my boyfriend's/girlfriend's mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[X] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[X] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[X] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[X] having great responsibilities
[X] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[X] incurable diseases
[X] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[X] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[X] high speed
[X] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secrets
If you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it "I'm Afraid of _ Out of 72 Common Fears".
If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.
