Soooooo it seems like mom has decided to look for employment where we're currently residing instead of doing the commute thing. Not gonna lie, this whole back and forth upheaval routine has done a number on me but at the end of the day I'd much rather she's happy and healthy :)
Dad has a cold and in addition to that he had a bit of a meltdown yesterday, which caused mom to get mighty upset. The sisters were slated to visit (today) for a bit of a get-together so mom was puttering about the house to fix food and what not. At one point she asked if we should postpone the gathering, to which he replied "maybe we should postpone me".
Now in English that doesn't sound so bad but if I were to directly translate the words used then "postpone" would actually be "shoot". Yeah, nice thing to say, dad. On top of that he stormed out of the house and proclaimed that "It's going to be so nice to get out of this place, you have no idea".
While informing my sisters that we had to call off the visit my older sister said that she'd experienced friends go through the same kind of episodic meltdowns as dad's and mentioned having read reports about doctors knowing about this type of condition for years but not having a name for a diagnosis (yet). We've always known (and suffered from) his emotional/psychological disorder/dysfunction but as time go ticking by, and he does nothing to get a handle on it, the more frustrating these events become. Especially for me since I've seemingly received more of his dna than moms, in that regard, and have put myself through hell to feel better. To see him lash out but not facing the issues is like a slap to the face.
Bah. Maybe some day he'll look for help or work on it. We all want him to get out of that head space because, as hard as it is for us to live next to an unpredictable hurricane, it's torture to BE the storm.
On a lighter note, I'm thinking of shipping him off to a warmer climate. lol. One of his brothers is going abroad and I thought it might do him good to tag along. I'll mention the idea to him... see where it "lands" :P
Love love love you all!
