so im having a lovely second day
last night i sobbed because my tissues were on the wrong side of my room and because of other really retarded reasons and screamed about how im alone and a disgusting person.....which isnt really true? i love having my emotional balance get smashed with a bat every twenty eight days, i really did. and then i listed to my dad EVERY SINGLE THING i wanted to eat. god bless him for making me dinner right away and giving me bubble wrap and a big stick.
i stay home from school today....
no sobbing
just essays....and thor....and asians...
PEACE
A BANDWAGON!
*wild bandwagon appeared*
*Sarah uses "hop on"*
...
*Sarah hopped on the bandwagon*
LAYER ONE : THE OUTSIDE
- Name: sarah
- Eye Color: blue
- Hair Style/Color: blonde(fornow *ominous arm wiggle* and shoulder length (for now)
- Height: 5' 3.5"
- Clothing style: anything and everything, usually whatever al says is ugly
- Best physical feature: i like my lips and my legs, idk why, but they're better than my nose(ugh) and my peanut eyes(ew), what even are boobs(i'm proud of my pancakes), and my butt is mediocre. i meant PFT i don't care what other people think.... (except i really don't...?)
LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE
- Your fears: I'm AFRAID of open water, things i can't see in open water, unfriendly people touching my neck, and being alone and while i usually like dead things, I've discovered lifeless hermit crab bodies make me want to barf
- Your guilty pleasure: I'm gonna be freakin honest here and write smutty yaoi.... ^^' kill me, i read star fighter and teahouse; on a different note, gravity falls because i should be too old for that, kids books, and carbs
- Ambitions for the future: achieve the proper mental stability and availability to have a boyfriend
LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS
- Your first thoughts waking up: usually about my dreams, wanting to sleep again or about what I was writing the night before
- What you think about most: writing, character development, and plot ideas (not that any of it shows in my writing.... ha)
- What you think about before bed: sometimes I'm deep, sometimes I'm nostalgic, and sometimes its just which boy i pair with which boy
- You think your best quality is: my really strange way of making friends with the people who hate me (is that a quality?) or maybe its my ability to TALK with ANYONE especially adults i love talking to adults. and no alex, your sarcasm is annoying and uncalled for and you're gross...your awful I LOVE YOU
LAYER FOUR: WHAT’S BETTER?
- Single or group dates: for now? any dates? or no dates. i honestly don't like dealing with other people enough but i still kinda want a boyfriend...? being close to your friends and being there for them and making time for them is one thing(a very important thing<3), but being in a RELATIONSHIP kind of skeevs me out atm because i don't want to be expected to commit to someone, and drop all my fucking shit for someone because they wanna cuddle while I'm trying to get into college and watch anime. so when i find a guy who wants to study biology, watch anime, and cuddle at the same time while giving my my goddamn space, then we can talk about dates. rant rant rant
- To be loved or respected: both are important
- Beauty or brains: i don't care. everybody i know is a beautiful genius so there.
- Dogs or cats: fucking love cats
LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
- Lie: well i DO lie, but honestly, i just babble so much i end up telling the truth anyway
- Believe in yourself: yes (i might be too self-confident, but whatever)
- Believe in love: yes i do (despite my previous rant. I just think high school romance is stupid, but hell i want a bf later and a husband and love and shit...)
- Want someone: like lustily? um ryan reynolds? that man is pretty.
LAYER SIX: EVER?
- Been on stage: sure. i was a god damn dog
- Done drugs: HEEEEELL no. I'm straight edge, even if my parents don't believe me
- Changed who you were to fit in: i tend to worm my way in anyway, so no. but the people i fit in with do affect my personality, if that makes sense
LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES
- Favorite color: red (SERIOUSLY ALEX? YOU COLOR THIEF.)
- Favorite animal: hedge hogs that boogie
- Favorite movie: pan's labyrinth and jurassic park
- Favorite game: dead space
LAYER EIGHT: AGE
- Day your next birthday will be: sept. 12
- How old will you be: 18
- Age you lost your virginity: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA YES. TO ALL THE BOYS I VISIT AT NIGHT. BECAUSE IM A WANTON MISTRESS OF THE FUCKING NIGHT. no.
- Does age matter: when you're young, yes. as adults, not as much
LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL
- Best personality: i don't keep a checklist. if i like a person, it'll be because they're UNIQUE
- Best eye color: green
- Best hair color: i stopped giving a crap
- Best thing to do with a partner: square dance. (gonna have to go with al on this.)
LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
- I love: my friends and my family and being alive.
- I feel: inconsiderate
- I hide: not much since i blab everything out anyway
- I miss: grade school and simplicity
- I wish: for the people i love to be the happiest they can.
is this big rant even legal to put on the internet?
I'm such a rangy bitch omg
im ranting about me ranting.
oh my god good night.
HV
I AM HV LEAVE ME ALONG
IM PMS-ing PEOPLE. JUST TO GIVE YOU A HEADS UP
