My mood today has done a complete 180. This morning after my exam i felt great. I was happy I couldn't wait to go home and see my friends, but now I kinda feel really distanced from everybody I know. Even my brothers. I just want to curl up in a ball and pretend im a clam so nobody talks to me? Im really unhappy about that tho, like I was so pumped to go home and see people and now i just feel like a 6.022x10^23th wheel.

Its getting progressively worse and worse the longer I'm awake so I should just go to bed. I don't know. I jsut dont want to tell my brother mike that i might not even pass chemistry. I dont want to annoy my brother steve like the immature baby sister that I am. I dont wanna be mean and hurt peoples feelings anymore and I dont want to be "snippy" or "sassy." I always feel like I'm doing something wrong or that my friends don't really like me, though i think thats common. Maybe. I don't know, i also wish i wasn't so jealous. Like just the mention of a name of someone who might be close with one of my friends just really puts me off. Ok, I should shut up now.

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Sarh