So this isn't really about the last post... but definitely related.

We have a student teacher in japanese now and he's only 21. So its really hard to think of him as a sensei, but our professor made us swear we wouldn't have anything but professional relationships with him. Except oops, he's a cool dude so my friend and i hung out with I'm and some seniors for about six hours today. ehehhhh its really bad. Like we could get in serious trouble.

also, i was super nervous bat the whole ordeal so i basically acted like a weirdo???? thats my solution to everything????? anyway #wastedopportunity to practice the language i enjoy learning, that my student teacher probably thinks i don't give to shits about because I'm an asshole in class.

every time I try to be better, i fail miserably. And my friend bridget, she was usually worse than me, but she decided to be normal so instead of at least seeming like a pair of goofballs, its now just me being weird. Oh well. I guess major personality change is almost impossible. I wish it wasn't. I hate the person i've become, or at least, the person I've become on the outside. I'm just a conformist, an attention whore, and an insensitive, obnoxious, hypocritical bitch.

sorry if you ever come into contact with me again.

:P