had to take my dad to the airport this morning. which meant being up at 5 in the morning. then we sat there. i love my dad and all, but siting in an airport, is soooo boring. then came the goodbyes. he has to go back to korea for another 6 months. mom and ryan were all red and wet from crying, balling their eyes out. i didn't cry. i never cry. don't know why. don't feel anything either. it's just normal to not have him around for me now. stupid military. when he is home visiting, it's just so akward. it messes up our normal routine. and even when he is gone, we don't talk much. mom and ryan hog the phone. and i'm tired of having to ask to tald to him. why doesn't HE ASK to talk to ME. if he isn't asking, i'm assuming he doesn't want to. :(

sleep when finally got home, hung out with ashley for 2 hours, and watched my speed racer movie. feel nasueos and sick. am going to bed now.