did the arm machine, weights, and swam a mile(36 laps) today. while the other swimmers quickly and gracefully went back and forth, i awkwardley putted along doing the doggy paddle. i've tried doing the other strokes, but they are just not comfortable, and i can't maintain them for very long. mom always yells at me when she sees me do the doggy paddle, and why can't i swim like her, or normally. but i tell her that the way she swims looks like a frog, and i'd rather look like a dog than a frog.
math was easy. but i had to pee real bad the entire time.
went to the library to try and find something on Neo-Platonism, but no luck. that library is so screwed up, it's impossible to find anything. but i found some fitness books. but they aren't really any help, now that i've looked through them.
had to pick up the boys from their weight taining class, and got lost on the way. stopped at walmart to look at the weight loss/dieting stuff. decided to try on of the pill kind. i hate trying to lose weight. nomatter how hard i exercise, eat healthy, or any type of diet, i gain instead of lose. even when i eat healthy and exercise! sometimes i think surgery may be the only otion for me.
ryan kept trying to talk to me, and come into my room today, and i just would snap him to go away, and i told him i didn't want anything ot do with him today. when he went out to play later, mom came in and scolded me, calling me rude, and that i have to apologize when he gets home. but i refuse. she said that he's rude, to tell her, and she'll scold him. when she said that, all i was thinking was NOT! a while back, when the neighbors daughter, ellen, was over, he called me stupid, idiot, retard, and a bunch of other things, in front of ellen, and told ellen not to talk to me because i would never shut up and i'm just to stupid. i told mom the next morning, and what did she do? nothing. gave him a small disaproving look, then, nothing. so i've decided that untill he apologizes to me about all the nasty things he says to me in front of our friends, i'm not apologizing to him at all.
