Hi All,
A few days ago I typed a journal in DeviantART mentioning that I needed a break and that I had put the sketchbook away for a while. I'm three days into my decision and I feel really weird.
To make a long story short, I have spent the last two month feverishly sketching anything that dawned on me or captured my eye. This outpour of creativity slowly became an obsession that strained everything in my life. I was sleeping 3-4 hours a night, cancelled several meetings with friends, missed two concerts I completely forgot about, etc. The ironic thing is that it even ruined the quality of my work, because I kept rushing in order to move on faster to the next piece. I was falling asleep everywhere, even watching movies in the cinema.
I realized what was happenning when I found unopened bills from last month. I looked around at my flat and witnessed the mess...I sat for a minute and decided to stop Illustration altogether, at least for a month.
I felt relieved at first when I posted the journal, but now I'm feeling a bit strange, like this big chunk of my life is missing. I feel like I am fooling myself, because I don't know if I can be called an Artist, but I have a strong compulsion to create and customize the world around me. Not doing this and accepting what's around me as it is makes me feel oppressed.
Anyways, thanks for reading. I hope I can find a balance between living and producing.
I'll be back in 3 days or so to let you guys know how I'm getting on. If you guys have ever had anything like this, please feel free to share your experiences.
