You all know how life can be confusing, especially when it comes to love. Love, ha, what a word. It can mean so much, but at the same time, so little. What exactly is it? is it a word, a feeling, a promise, or something that cannot ever be explained? Who knows the answer? But that's not what I am going to write about.....no. What I am going to write about is a guy that is too blind to see, and one that is going to open his eyes;

I was in my junior year, with a lot of life ahead of me. So why did i feel like ending it? well, I have had a lot of relationships, all that have which ended badly. Now I have been trying to get this guy for about three years, and recently I found out that he likes two other girls and as for me, I am just here. But I wanted him so badly that it made me sick. Everyone was saying that I should move on, but that's one thing that I hate... Letting go after so much time. It made me cry when I straight up asked him if I was wasting my time and he said yes. So I again learned the hard way that I was never going to belong to him. Nor he to me. So he is the one that is blind. He will never see the good that I could bring, or the bad. I guess that is a good thing, I wont have another heart break. But like my favorite song says, "I'd rather hurt then feel nothing at all." [Lady Antebellum-Need You Now] So I guess I lost that one. But like I said, there's one more. He is beginning to see that I have some feelings towards him, and he is showing some interest. I think that I may have a chance, because he is opening his eyes to new possibilities, me! But that sounds bad... lol. he may be just exploring more and find out that I am not the one he wants. But hey, at least I will help him find out what he doesn't want. So that's all.

Please tell me if you have had the same situation. I would love to hear that I am not the only one that is experiencing this.

<3 always, Mrs.Cowgirl