Welcome to my mind wich is that of an 11th grade otaku videogame addict and guy who fails in relationships 
so this is whatever is on my mind at the moment so the range of emotions may be angry sad or happy if it's something else it's a special occasion... So enjoy my rants laugh(or not) at the bad or nerdy jokes and try to enjoy life
- Created By FLCLrules
Random poetry?
Ive' fallen into a dark abyss, I stop and look around something seems amiss what am I missing? Oh yeah how about my mind? [BREAK] I was told I care to much about my friends but the truth is I would sacrifice it all for them in the end I would give...I lost a friend this summer
Leukemia took him after his second battle with it and it wasn't fair he was SIXTEEN he didn't deserve that no one did I don't blame any one but it's unfair I know he is in a better place and that is the only closure I get and it's fine but someone so young doesn't deserve to be in that much pain for so long. NO ONE DESERVES IT! but it happens and it makes me realize there are people in life that always fight and never give up Kameron was one of those people.. R.I.P Kameron you can rest now this is for you
Countdown to sadness
I just need to let this out. It may be sleep deprivation and this AMV but I just realized that I help all of my friends but I never ask them for any thing. Oh well I like helping them I owe them they all pulled me out of the dark that was my life and now I just try to pay them back that is about it for now see you guyz l8er.
My first fanboy crush
I have been an otaku for a loooong time but I didn't start really picking out characters I was in love with until I got into some better quality anime(story character design etc.) my first honestly was (thinks for a moment) Youroichi from Bleach( I have had ones before but Youroichi was the first I wrote about in a fan fic) I have had my more artistic friends draw me and her and I am still writing a fan fic with me and her(my friend Kamina 910 took Soi-Fon) I have put up a lot of pictures of her in binders and she is the background on my computer, the main reason I fell in love with her and i still am in love with her is because she has a laid back personality and she slacks a lot doesn't allow people to address her formaly and she has a nice body(that is just a bonus not trying to be pervy.) I am not ashamed of it because sometimes life can't give you what you want so you have to take it form somewhere else I found my escape in her and writing. If it isn't clear from the above I am still in love with her and it will probably stay for a while i hope and for know I am fine with her.
