Uh nah... I feel more like I'm stupid. I need to be more optimistic, but I know I never win big contest. I always seem to lose. Little contest like 3 or 4 enter and I win? Well, sometimes it's more like second or third place and never seems to be first place. "Always the bride's maid, never the bride." This saying comes to mind. I'm not trying to get sympathy. I just want to get this off my chest because I feel sad, bad, etc. Hikaru means To Shine. Hikari means Light. I don't get many people who fave, comment or vote for my artworks, like only 3 to 4 sometimes higher, but mostly on other works of mine. It's an artist unappreciated feeling, I getting all the time from M, she likes it, but it's never like everyone else who give it with enthusiasm.