Wall between you and yourfriend.

I can't really understand the nature of life. Well I have my best friends Joy and Tin. we've been friends for three years almost four years, During our first year Tin tin and me had a conflict and what had happen in the past still affects us in present. You know the feeling that we can't feel the closeness of us anymore. Its like there's a wall between me and her that is separating us from one another. and It must be the conflict that we had. That conflict last for almost 1 month and it made me cry a lot. Im not the type of person who loves to keep his/her heartaches inside. Im the type of Letting it go. That conflict had made me cry because I was accuse that I am taking his boyfriend away from her. Why will I do that? I don't know anything about having a relationship between your opposite sex Im only 12 years old back there. And she was accusing me of this and that. and she made my teacher and adviser believed her. And that's were open forums where made and she's pointing it out of me. same as my adviser they were accusing me for something that i did not done. I was there crying. But There was our prefect of discipline officer and our guidance counselor they believe on me. for they know who I really am and the fact that I can't do that thing. I was contented for having them and that made me silent. For I know that truth will come out. I tried not to affect myself with the issue.

And now. This is still bugging me inside. I can't get to share my feelings and stuff to tin tin because, Of what had happen in the past. I know that I mus have forget it . but Its like a trauma. I don't know.
I can see that it the same goes with her. She can't get to talk to me about her secret when Joy is not around.

Am I that bad friend? For being unfair to her? I can't really understand . :"<

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