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~Welcome to where I spill my heart out~
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Please enjoy my poems and comment if you wish. All feedback is appreciated and valued.
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Sometimes life throws hard times at us. At those times, we must never forget who we are and what we strive for. Never forget your dreams.
~Razi-chan
Do you ever feel like you are lost
Never again to be found or to return
Do you ever feel like all your dreams just burn
Right in front of you, no matter what the cost
Does it ever seem
That you can never feel or catch your dream
And doesn't it always seem, in others eyes or your own
Like you don't even belong in your own home
Do you ever feel, that you failed all the ones you love
Do you ever feel, like you could choke on your thoughts
Do you ever feel, like your ship had sailed long ago
Or that you could sink into despair, and drown into misery?
Sometimes it all seems heartless
You can't grip tightly onto the harness
Of a life that you once knew, of a life that you envision
Well come on, carry on; those wheels no longer have a form or composition
Oh, do you ever feel, like you disappoint yourself, and those you know?
And that no matter how hard you try, you can't seem to go with the flow
Like every little thing just doesn't go your way, no?
Well isn't that always how-whether or not you like it-it always seems to go?
Do you ever feel like this: like you can't do anything right
Like you could disappear into the night, never to return
All facts of reality give you fright, well after all it's your plight
To have no confidence, but you make it no one's concern, or so you think
The people push and shove, and you can't look up to the one above
You wish you could disappear, and be rid of all this fear
But you know it's not that easy, and that not everyone you can please
Isn't that how it always goes, no matter how you feel?
Well do you ever feel, like you're a tourist in your own mind
Your heart's betrayed your eyes, pulled your dreams down every seam
And now there's nowhere for you to go, nowhere for you to run
And it feels like there's no end, and you can only ask yourself: "What have I become?!"
((I made another world for this story, but I decided to put it in this world. I won't make a separate world for this story unless I write enough, which I doubt will happen. I may have plans for a different world, but I don't know yet. Anyway for now, please enjoy this random story bit I wrote. ^^ )
Moonlight illuminated a vast land of green, rolling hills which spread far across a plain. Stars twinkled and reflected themselves upon a small, shimmering body of water which was surrounded by high, enormous trees that skyrocketed towards the sparsely clouded night sky. A soft breeze blew, gently scattering around falling leaves and flower petals. The leaves and petals all fell around a girl who was standing at the edge of the shimmering body of water. She stood tall and straight, her eyes lifeless and lips formed as a frown.
She stared onto the scene with inert, crimson eyes. A strand of her yellow hair blew in her face and she pushed it back behind her ear. Taking a step forward, she then reached out her arm and opened her hand. The water then began to ripple, and a face appeared in the water, as if it were her own reflection.
"Sir, the Moonlight has revealed the truth. I have come for further instructions." The girl reported, her voice monotone and expression stoic.
"Ah, Rin. That is good to know... Make sure our plan goes as discussed... for it shall make history, and rewrite it." The face in the reflection said, nodding.
The girl called Rin bowed, and also nodded, "Of course, sir."
"All you need to do is get the five items and gather the fellowship. Only then can you receive what you desire." The face informed her.
Rin looked on with her lifeless eyes and nodded once more. With that, the face disappeared, the water calmed itself, and all was still once again. Once more, Rin will suffer. Once more, Rin will fight for what she desires. For nothing, will stop her from achieving her true wish... Her past life to return to her.
After completing the first phase, Rin could finally search for the five items: the Lantern, Pocket-Watch, Medallion, Ring, and Sword.
With one last look at the shimmering water and skyrocketing trees, Rin suddenly jumped up in a whirlwind of air and disappeared, on her way to the next destination.
Lost in my own little world
They tell me to grow up but I ignore
Well, if I could you know I would
But hell, I'd say no way anyway,
I'm fine right here
In my own little world
Yeah, it's where I wanna be
I'm just sick and tired
Of all the insanity of reality
I'm quite fine right here,
in my own little world
It may not be real,
but like fabric, reality I will shear
In my own little world
I can hide and reveal anything I want to
I can be anyone and see everything
In my own little world, I can do what I want to do
But you see, it's not that simply minded...
It's not that I'm too kindhearted
If my mind is my only true friend then so be it
Without them, I can be me, in my own little world
Lost in my own little world
They tell me to grow up but I ignore
Well, if I could you know I would
But hell, I'd say no way anyway,
I'm fine right here
Well here I'm telling you I'd rather not
I'd much rather stay in my own little world
Yeah I prefer to be alone, I don't care if it never ends
Because when I don't have my friends, I have me
And that's all I need
Me and my little world, we shall go far
Far away where you can't reach me,
far away where you can't tell me it's not real
No, it's not really that lonely
I'll keep in mind, and lose it slowly
Because sometimes in my mind it's like a thunderstorm
And it times, it causes me to fell torn
Nonetheless we'll reach for the stars, the universe will be ours
And when we do, I'll be sure to tell you
Because right here in my own little world is where I'm most happy
Yeah you'll see, it was all worthwhile, and yeah, I'm sure...
I'll see you smile.
Not long ago, I used to feel proud and confident
I did so little, but with that I was fine
Because sometimes, the less you do
The less you have to be ashamed of, right?
No that's not so- in this life, I have learned
That there are times when we fall
Those memories, though I've tried, have not yet burned
But that is why you need, if anything at all...
To find a way, to try to forget, and just move on
Just a few years later, that pride is long forgotten
My self-esteem that took so long to build up,
is now perpetually broken
What I had was lost, and could seemingly never be found
Though bit by bit, I regained some of what was lost
But in the end, that little confidence was torn down once again
Just to be shattered, and away it was tossed
Trying to forget, trying to move forward
Though it's even harder now, is there not a reward?
All traces of optimism's disappeared into the thin air
Without a trace, I cry out, "Were you really even there?"
Oh, it wasn't so long ago-this commemoration-
That I thought... "this would never happen to me"
But how life can prove you wrong, "it's reality,"
Pride won't get you anywhere, not even in moderation
Oh, but now, I'm still struggling to forget,
This promise, that once was a simple threat
There's so much more, that I am so ashamed of recently
I've done so much more, than I thought I would, oh how could this be?
Hey weakness, you think you're going to win
But weakness, you'd better think again
I won't hide my pain, won't hide my scars
I will succeed, because I've come this far
There's no sense in giving up now
I've done so much, though I don't know how
Hey weakness, I'll get in your face
Won't go away until your sent into outer space
Far away where I can't see you,
Far away where I can't feel you
You won't get the best of me, now will you
Who are you anyway, my invisible enemy?
No way, you won't ever win
I won't give up or join in
Hey weakness, shut up
If I fall back down again, I'll just get back up
Hey weakness, you think this will be your victory
Well you better think again, you won't get the best of me
Because I've come this far even with you by my side
I will push you away, forget you, let you was away with the tide
Hey weakness, I've been writing about you
For far too long now
Hey weakness, I'm gonna forget about you
Write about my strengths now
I will no longer feel my pain
I will now show my battle scars
I will be victorious, despite the bloody stain
Because even with you by my side, I've come this far!
