I've been thinking about the choices I've made recently. If the things I'm doing are right.
I've always had a sense that I was doing the right thing, that I would do everything in my power to protect my friends and to protect all the fun times we've shared.
But as the days progress and our laughter together diminishes, I don't know.
I feel as though I've taken the wrong path. But how could I have done any different? Given each situation, I doubt that with what I thought at the time, I would think of anything else to do.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm lost. I give up.

I'm sorry if I'm wasting your time. I don't mean to be a bother. Just getting this somewhat off my chest.