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Vampire Dream

Mood: Artist mode
Listen to: Forever by Chris Brown
Thoughts: "Why don't I just give up?"

Well The title explains it! I had a dream last night. I was a vampire/ dark elf! It was like those anime type of dreams. But anyways, I had red eyes, wings, long pointed ears, long flowing brown hair, and black long shiny nails. I was looking cute! And I had two outfits. The first one was like a regular outfit which was a short mini skirt, a tag top like shirt, a chain choker, arm warmers, and long heeled leather boots with a few extra body peircings. Then I changed into a tag top, jeans, seeing glasses, and leather gloves outfit. Then When I went into battle mode ((don't ask me why my dreams are so wierd)) I transformed.

Like my whole outfit changed in a light and I grew bat wings out of my back! My battle armor was a mini dress with ruffles, long gloves, a choker necklace, long stockings, and cute little heeled shoes. I looked like a little lolita girl! I was smexy! Then I kicked some alien ass! After the fight I went out to celebrate. I was around all my friends and new faces appeared. I still had my personality though except I was a little more pervy towards girls. XD

Wasn't that dream awesome??? I'm going to draw what I looked like! XD

Thnx for reading!
♥ Naé

Oyasumi

Oyasumi Everyone. I'm going to bed. It's been a loooong day. ^^
Tlk to you tommorrow!

♥ Naé

Punishment...

Sigh. I'm on punishment AGAIN! But this time, I haven't done anything! Janelle was the one making trouble in school. But you know when one twin gets in trouble, the other gets punished with her/him. Gosh I hate that. But anyways, my punishment is to wear my uniform to school (which are for squares!), turn in my cellphone to my mother at 10:00 pm EVERY NIGHT (yes that includes weekends), keep the TV and my cell phone off until mother gets home, and stay off the computer on the weekdays. So I can't update anything until Friday Saturday or Sunday basically... So... I just wanted to yet you know. Right now I'm at school. Don't worry. I will be drawing as much as I can. I actually drew SojiRem a birthday picture but I guess it's too late now huh? Heh... Well Ja Ne!

♥ Nae

Aim Convo. {{ Read to know how I'm feeling }}

Mizzplumz410- Me
XbrownSkinMonaX- Romona (girlfriend...)

Key:
Yhu- you
lyk- like
juss- just
ri8- right
i8- iight (okay)
dhisz- this
dhat- that
isz- is
ugh- mad grunt
tlk/tlkin- talk/ talking
{{mostly every word with s on the end has z's}}
Keshauna- Ex girlfriend
Najee- Hated clone on next page or so. Ruining my life.
Sinbad- Mona's ex

[17:45] XbrownSkinMonaX: yhu ok babe?
[17:45] mizzplumz410: yhu seriously askin me dhat
[17:45] XbrownSkinMonaX: yea
[17:45] mizzplumz410: no
[17:45] mizzplumz410: im not
[17:45] XbrownSkinMonaX: r yhu mad at me or sumthin?
[17:45] mizzplumz410: no
[17:46] mizzplumz410: im not
[17:46] XbrownSkinMonaX: So y r yhu actin lyk dhat?
[17:47] mizzplumz410: im not actin in anyway. i'm just sad and heartbroken. yhu dnt expect me to be sad and heartbroken after yhu juss BROKE UP with me ova a voice in yhur head?
[17:49] XbrownSkinMonaX: Its not jus a voice jenae its everything. I mean lyk i luv yhu && yhu kno dhAt. but when got sch a strong feeling yhu cnt fight it... Yhu kno i luv yhu more than anything in dha world. && i wuldnt dhissz if i didnt feel lik it wasz ri8
[17:50] mizzplumz410: apparently yhu dont luv me ova yhur own feelingsz.
[17:51] XbrownSkinMonaX: yhu jus sounded real stupid, if i ignore mi feelingsz jus bcauz i luv yhu. i wuldnt realluy luv yhu
[17:52] mizzplumz410: well wat do yhu expect. i'm drownin in my tearsz ova here
[17:54] XbrownSkinMonaX: Omg yhu makin feel bad.
[17:54] mizzplumz410: so i dnt believe yhu when yhu say yhu love me sometimes. my feelingsz are sayin yhur cheatin. my feelingsz tell me yhur still not ova najee, chelsea, sinbad, or any otha nigga. my feelingsz tell me many thingsz dhat may be true. but yhu kno wat? I alwaysz tried to ignored these feelingsz bcusz i go wit wat yhu say. I go wit the love i hav for yhu.
[17:55] mizzplumz410: im sorry that i'm makin yhu feel dhisz way but i'm juss feeling really hurt right now
[17:55] mizzplumz410: i feel like yhu lead me on...
[17:56] XbrownSkinMonaX: lead yhu on??
[17:56] mizzplumz410: yea. led me on
[17:56] mizzplumz410: led me on to think many thingsz
[17:56] mizzplumz410: lik you'll neva leave me
[17:56] mizzplumz410: or you'll alwaysz love me
[17:57] mizzplumz410: or you wouldn't make me cry anymore
[17:57] mizzplumz410: but thisz... thisz isz bad...
[17:57] XbrownSkinMonaX: so now yhur mad at me. 4 following a feeling. wow
[18:00] mizzplumz410: im not mad
[18:00] mizzplumz410: no no no
[18:00] XbrownSkinMonaX: so wat r yhu? sad/
[18:01] mizzplumz410: yes
[18:01] XbrownSkinMonaX: yhu say dhisz now. but i bet yhu 2weeksz 4rum now. yhur gonna b ova it. i bet yhu
[18:02] mizzplumz410: oh hell no
[18:02] mizzplumz410: im not
[18:02] mizzplumz410: trust and believe im not
[18:03] XbrownSkinMonaX: sure....
[18:04] mizzplumz410: yhur bein mean
[18:05] XbrownSkinMonaX: How??
[18:05] mizzplumz410: im sorry. i didn't mean to say mean.
[18:06] mizzplumz410: its like yhu dnt care. lik yhur bein mad brezzy on this... lik yhu think yhu kno dhat imma be ova thisz in lik 2 weeksz but the sad truth isz... i'm not.
[18:07] mizzplumz410: i feel lik keshauna
[18:07] XbrownSkinMonaX: LMAO. wowzers y keyshaunna? dha one name i dnt want 2 here
[18:07] XbrownSkinMonaX: hear*
[18:10] mizzplumz410: bcuz she loved me. like really loved me. Like IN LOVE with me. and I told her its not that bad when I broke up wit her. I told her that she'll get ova it. I told her I still loved her but I loved somebody more. She couldnt stop crying at gym one time. everytime she looked at me she cried. Now i'm the new her. and yhur the new me...
[18:10] mizzplumz410: I dont believe I could look at yhu tommorrow without crying. impossible. I mean i'm not that strong
[18:11] mizzplumz410: i was alwaysz senstive. alwaysz.
[18:11] XbrownSkinMonaX: mayb yall belng 2getha. shes gonna b super duper happy 2 hear dhat we broke yhup. Ugh
[18:11] mizzplumz410: no she's not
[18:11] mizzplumz410: i'm not tlkin to her...
[18:11] mizzplumz410: she got on my nerves one day
[18:11] XbrownSkinMonaX: well she defently gonna start tlkin 2 yhu now. since im not in dha way
[18:12] mizzplumz410: UGH!
[18:12] mizzplumz410: NO! I WONT LET HER!
[18:12] XbrownSkinMonaX: If yhu say so.
[18:12] mizzplumz410: I want yhu... no one else romona... why dont yhu believe me?? WHY???
[18:13] XbrownSkinMonaX: Cauz i dnt....
[18:13] mizzplumz410: dhatsz not a reason
[18:13] XbrownSkinMonaX: i believe dat sumtime dhisz year. yhur gonna out wit sum1 else. i mean obviously.
[18:14] mizzplumz410: tell me. do yhu beleive it when anybody tells yhu that they love yhu???
[18:14] XbrownSkinMonaX: Na not everybodii
[18:15] mizzplumz410: am i concidered as anybodii else??
[18:15] mizzplumz410: and if i am then yy??
[18:16] XbrownSkinMonaX: yhur not. hell no
[18:16] mizzplumz410: so why dont yhu believe me?? WHY??
[18:16] mizzplumz410: I love yhu romona
[18:16] mizzplumz410: more than anythin
[18:16] mizzplumz410: i love yhu lik family
[18:16] XbrownSkinMonaX: I LOVE YHU 2.
[18:16] mizzplumz410: more than dat
[18:17] XbrownSkinMonaX: more dhan wat?
[18:17] mizzplumz410: family
[18:17] mizzplumz410: lik a lover
[18:17] mizzplumz410: sum 1 i could spend my life wit
[18:17] mizzplumz410: we went thru so much...
[18:17] mizzplumz410: but still made it
[18:17] mizzplumz410: until now
[18:17] XbrownSkinMonaX: I KNO. bu t i culd ony tak so much
[18:18] mizzplumz410: if yhu loved me lik yhu say yhu do dhan yhu would tak it.
[18:18] XbrownSkinMonaX: i cnt do dhat.
[18:18] XbrownSkinMonaX: i giv yhup. dhatsz jus me
[18:19] mizzplumz410: bcuz dheresz nuthin we cant talk ova
[18:19] mizzplumz410: ...
[18:19] XbrownSkinMonaX: i kno babe. but i culd really only tak so much... yhu stopped crying??
[18:20] mizzplumz410: on the outside yes. but on the inside no. i'm drowning.
[18:21] mizzplumz410: dheresz a hole in my heart
[18:21] mizzplumz410: and no matta how hard ppl try
[18:21] mizzplumz410: no matta how much bandages
[18:22] mizzplumz410: i put on it
[18:22] mizzplumz410: the wound will neva heal
[18:23] XbrownSkinMonaX: R Yhu Serious??
[18:23] mizzplumz410: do i seem serious?
[18:23] XbrownSkinMonaX: Yeah
[18:23] mizzplumz410: dheresz yhur answa
[18:24] mizzplumz410: i haven't been more serious in my life
[18:24] mizzplumz410: dead ass
[18:24] mizzplumz410: real talk
[18:24] XbrownSkinMonaX: but y me?
[18:24] mizzplumz410: y not yhu romona?
[18:25] XbrownSkinMonaX: Gosh. idk. wat is about me yo real tlk. everytime i breal yhup wit sum1 dhey cnt let it go. i mean im not dhat special
[18:25] mizzplumz410: yes yhu r romona
[18:26] mizzplumz410: dhatsz wat yhur not understandin
[18:26] mizzplumz410: everyone yhu tend to put in yhur love life wants to be that special some 1
[18:26] mizzplumz410: me? I want it more than anything
[18:28] mizzplumz410: i would do anythin for you... I believe i told yhu that b4. That's why I cnt stand it when ppl's in my way to be wit yhu
[18:28] mizzplumz410: lik najee
[18:28] mizzplumz410: he already ruined my own life by taking away dha ppl i love with his fakeness.
[18:29] mizzplumz410: everyone he's been with causzed them pain
[18:29] mizzplumz410: so wats makesz it so different from every gurl he's been wit when he says he loves yhu?
[18:30] mizzplumz410: there's no difference
[18:30] mizzplumz410: he'll play yhu lik he did everboddi else
[18:30] mizzplumz410: He'll toy with yhur heart lik every one else
[18:30] mizzplumz410: it's child play with him
[18:30] XbrownSkinMonaX: y do yhu think its him. its not him
[18:30] XbrownSkinMonaX: sweetheart
[18:31] mizzplumz410: here we go
[18:31] mizzplumz410: yeah it's not only him
[18:31] mizzplumz410: its yhu
[18:31] mizzplumz410: trusting him
[18:31] XbrownSkinMonaX: wat r yhu tlkin about here we go? smh head yo
[18:31] XbrownSkinMonaX: yhu alwaysz think it him gosh
[18:31] mizzplumz410: yhu alwaysz stick up for him. alwaysz dear
[18:32] XbrownSkinMonaX: dnt call me dear. cauz its not a smiling matter. since yhu wanna tak it dher
[18:32] mizzplumz410: well yhu say yhu love him. {{ or yhu once did}} he he'll neva love yhu the same way
[18:32] mizzplumz410: yhur dha one who called me sweetheart
[18:32] mizzplumz410: heh..
[18:32] mizzplumz410: my motto
[18:32] mizzplumz410: the thruth hurts
[18:33] XbrownSkinMonaX: wateva man.
[18:33] mizzplumz410: why r yhu gettn mad?
[18:33] mizzplumz410: all of a sudden
[18:34] XbrownSkinMonaX: cauz i hate wen yhu alwaysz think its him
[18:34] mizzplumz410: do yhu notice yhu alwaysz tend to get mad
[18:34] mizzplumz410: whenever I speak of him?
[18:34] mizzplumz410: well if its not him dhan who is it?
[18:34] mizzplumz410: i'm telling the truth here?
[18:34] mizzplumz410: right?
[18:34] XbrownSkinMonaX: its nobodii. its jus me
[18:35] XbrownSkinMonaX: idc. yo
[18:35] mizzplumz410: yeah its yhu too
[18:35] mizzplumz410: for takin in his crap
[18:35] Meebo Message: Could not IM buddy
[18:36] mizzplumz410: sigh. do yhu kno why its not him romona?
[18:36] XbrownSkinMonaX: no. i dnt wanna tlk about dhisz anymore
[18:36] XbrownSkinMonaX: cauz idc
[18:36] mizzplumz410: yhu dont care?
[18:36] mizzplumz410: why not?
[18:37] XbrownSkinMonaX: idc. wat yhu think. so switch dha subject
[18:37] mizzplumz410: dhatsz kinda harsh
[18:38] mizzplumz410: did it upset yhu when i told yhu he'll neva love yhu the same way you'll love him?? if it did i'm sorry. I juss speak my mind
[18:38] mizzplumz410: Heh. yhu say me and him are alike
[18:38] mizzplumz410: but we're not
[18:38] mizzplumz410: bcuz i love yhu more than yhu'll eva kno
[18:38] mizzplumz410: I love yhu more than yhu love me
[18:39] mizzplumz410: pain and simple
[18:39] mizzplumz410: *plaim
[18:39] mizzplumz410: *plain
[18:39] mizzplumz410: DAM IT!
[18:39] mizzplumz410: stupid typos
[18:40] mizzplumz410: it must hurt to kno that dha person yhu love doesn't love yhu back dhat same way.
[18:40] mizzplumz410: heh dhatsz one thing me and yhu have in common. we share dhat same pain
[18:41] XbrownSkinMonaX: ok watever
[18:41] mizzplumz410: are yhu angry now?
[18:41] mizzplumz410: do yhu wanna punch me?
[18:41] mizzplumz410: does it annoy yhu when i speak of this?
[18:42] XbrownSkinMonaX: i wanna throw straight 2 georgia dhatsz wat i wanna do.
[18:42] mizzplumz410: throw me?
[18:43] XbrownSkinMonaX: yes throw yhu
[18:43] mizzplumz410: that might hurt. I'll hit the landing badly. I might even die. Yhu want me to die?
[18:44] XbrownSkinMonaX: Na.
[18:44] mizzplumz410: yy are yhu so mad
[18:44] XbrownSkinMonaX: Don kno
[18:45] mizzplumz410: yhu hardly wanna talk to me now
[18:46] mizzplumz410: maybe yhu wasn't ready for dhat. By dhat i mean the serious Jenae. The one who doesn't play.
[18:46] mizzplumz410: Yhu wanna see wat an alter ego really looks lik dhan here she is.
[18:47] mizzplumz410: i'm really serious mona...
[18:47] mizzplumz410: wat makes him so special? Even more than me? When I cry my heart out to yhu?
[18:48] XbrownSkinMonaX: ITS NOT HIM. OH MY FUQQIN GOD.
[18:48] mizzplumz410: dhan who is it? A her. Really I could give a shit about dha gender. I juss kno dhat theres sum 1 involved
[18:48] mizzplumz410: sumwhere
[18:49] XbrownSkinMonaX: I think its Sinbad.
[18:49] mizzplumz410: yupp
[18:49] mizzplumz410: dhat day when yhu thought about cheatin on me
[18:49] XbrownSkinMonaX: but he not dha reaszon we broke yhup
[18:49] mizzplumz410: i kno. maybe its even longer
[18:50] mizzplumz410: dhan who is?
[18:51] mizzplumz410: yhu see? this is why yhu get dhat voice in ya head. I keep tellin yhu to tell me EVERYTHING as soon as it happens or as soon as yhu think about somethin
[18:51] mizzplumz410: yhu lik him? dhan juss say something!
[18:52] mizzplumz410: If yhu think he betta dhan me dhan tell me
[18:52] mizzplumz410: but yhu dnt choose to...
[18:53] mizzplumz410: and I ask why. But yhu simply say "bcuz i dnt want to"
[18:53] mizzplumz410: N "idc"
[18:53] XbrownSkinMonaX: Cauz everytime i tel sum1 mi feelingsz dhey get offended or sad. or sum shit. so i keep it 2 mi self plain && simple. i cnt trust no1 wit mi feelingsz. NO 1
[18:56] mizzplumz410: dhatsz another thing yhu say. "plain && simple" O how I hate those wrds. but i guess yhu dnt care about dhat either. that hurts to know dhat i'm not trust worthy. But I could trust yhu wit anythin. Heh... I kno there's a lesson that I gotta learn from dhisz but I dont choose to take it bcuz I want yhu to be open with me. Thats all I eva wanted. Back when we were friendsz thats wat I wanted. And Now as we speak dhatsz all I want
[18:57] mizzplumz410: I want yhur trust. I thought I gained it
[18:57] mizzplumz410: I try really hard to make yhu trust me
[18:58] mizzplumz410: Hard enough to make anyone cry from the effort and find out that yhu've done nothin and gotten no where
[18:59] XbrownSkinMonaX: Srry
[18:59] mizzplumz410: uhhuh.
[18:59] Meebo Message: Could not IM buddy
[19:02] mizzplumz410: sigh... nuthin will eva change yhur mind will it?
[19:03] XbrownSkinMonaX: idk mayb. mayb not
[19:03] mizzplumz410: sigh sigh sigh sigh... could I at least tell yhu something?
[19:04] XbrownSkinMonaX: yea sure
[19:07] XbrownSkinMonaX: actually ri8 now is not dah best time 2 tell me
[19:07] XbrownSkinMonaX: cauz im not gonna really listen
[19:07] mizzplumz410: otay i dnt kno if yhu care or not but wateva happens in the present or future I'll ALWAYS AND 4EVA love yhu no matta wat. I'll might come back from georgia some daii lik years from now & i want yhu to kno no matta how different yhu may be or no matta how ugly yhu may get {{ lolsz jk about dha ugly thing. yhur beautiful =D }} i'll still love yhu. I might not hav a great memory bcuz of my health condition in memory but trust and believe I'll alwaysz gonna rememba yhu
[19:07] XbrownSkinMonaX: (auto-response from XbrownSkinMonaX) I am away from my computer right now.
[19:07] mizzplumz410: omfg
[19:07] mizzplumz410: yhu serious?
[19:07] XbrownSkinMonaX: na im read it. since yhu jsu wrote dhat hole thing
[19:08] XbrownSkinMonaX: AW. dhat sweet. it made me smile
[19:08] mizzplumz410: yhur taking my heart I gave yhu and stabbing it with a knife.
[19:08] mizzplumz410: dhat should make yhu frown
[19:09] XbrownSkinMonaX: No Not really
[19:09] mizzplumz410: yhu dnt care
[19:10] XbrownSkinMonaX: UMM.....
[19:10] XbrownSkinMonaX: yea
[19:11] mizzplumz410: yhu care or not?
[19:18] XbrownSkinMonaX: hello?????
[19:20] mizzplumz410: yes? I asked yhu a question.
[19:20] mizzplumz410: yhu care or not??
[19:20] XbrownSkinMonaX: i sed yes i care
[19:21] mizzplumz410: do yhu care if i said yhur tearing my heart apart?
[19:22] XbrownSkinMonaX: Yes
[19:22] mizzplumz410: otay
[19:22] XbrownSkinMonaX: yhup...
[19:22] mizzplumz410: do yhu care if i told yhu when yhu sent me dhat text message about breaking up with me i couldn't breathe?
[19:23] XbrownSkinMonaX: yes i care
[19:23] mizzplumz410: does it effect yhu in any way?
[19:24] XbrownSkinMonaX: not really
[19:25] mizzplumz410: dhatsz how i kno yhu dnt care
[19:25] mizzplumz410: nuthin i say wont eva change yhur mind
[19:25] mizzplumz410: everything i try doesn't work
[19:25] XbrownSkinMonaX: well mayb n person. it will efect me
[19:25] mizzplumz410: but yet... i'm still tryin anyway
[19:25] mizzplumz410: bcuz... i love yhu.
[19:26] mizzplumz410: i dnt thin yhu understand.
[19:26] mizzplumz410: let me make it clear
[19:26] mizzplumz410: I
[19:26] mizzplumz410: L
[19:26] mizzplumz410: O
[19:26] mizzplumz410: V
[19:26] mizzplumz410: E
[19:26] mizzplumz410: R
[19:26] mizzplumz410: O
[19:26] mizzplumz410: M
[19:26] mizzplumz410: O
[19:26] mizzplumz410: N
[19:26] mizzplumz410: A
[19:26] mizzplumz410: T
[19:26] mizzplumz410: H
[19:26] mizzplumz410: O
[19:26] mizzplumz410: M
[19:26] mizzplumz410: A
[19:26] mizzplumz410: S
[19:26] mizzplumz410: still not clear?
[19:26] mizzplumz410: okay
[19:26] mizzplumz410: yhur my everthing
[19:27] mizzplumz410: dha past is effectin dha relationship we had
[19:27] mizzplumz410: yhu dnt care
[19:27] mizzplumz410: yhu tell me dnt all the time
[19:27] mizzplumz410: but i juss wont keep my yapp shut
[19:28] mizzplumz410: or keep me fingers away from the keys
[19:28] mizzplumz410: bcuz i care
[19:28] mizzplumz410: I really do care
[19:28] mizzplumz410: not clear yet?
[19:28] mizzplumz410: I
[19:28] mizzplumz410: C
[19:28] mizzplumz410: A
[19:28] mizzplumz410: R
[19:28] mizzplumz410: E
[19:28] mizzplumz410: 4
[19:28] mizzplumz410: Y
[19:28] mizzplumz410: O
[19:28] mizzplumz410: U
[19:28] mizzplumz410: S
[19:28] mizzplumz410: O
[19:28] mizzplumz410: O
[19:28] mizzplumz410: O
[19:28] mizzplumz410: M
[19:28] mizzplumz410: U
[19:28] mizzplumz410: C
[19:28] mizzplumz410: H
[19:29] mizzplumz410: Hmm... still not clear huh?
[19:29] mizzplumz410: even if its not...
[19:29] mizzplumz410: i juss keep goin
[19:29] mizzplumz410: & goin
[19:29] mizzplumz410: & goin
[19:29] XbrownSkinMonaX: shut up. daMN i get it. lol
[19:30] XbrownSkinMonaX: {{text me}} dhisz aim thing is gettin old. lol
[19:30] mizzplumz410: i lik aim =[
[19:30] XbrownSkinMonaX: fine dhen bye
[19:30] Meebo Message: XbrownSkinMonaX went mobile
[19:30] mizzplumz410: actually i'm on meebo
[19:30] mizzplumz410: bye?????????
[19:31] mizzplumz410: BYE??????????
[19:31] mizzplumz410: DO YHU THINK I WANNA SAY BYE AT A TIME LIKE DHISZ????????/
[19:32] mizzplumz410: nuthin neva works wit yhu...
[19:33] XbrownSkinMonaX: (Kissin mi teeth) ok
[19:33] mizzplumz410: "No offense
But I regret dhat day
I let yhu steal mi heart away" offense taken. that hurt
[19:33] mizzplumz410: rememba dhat poem?
[19:34] mizzplumz410: i still got it.
[19:35] mizzplumz410: So jus fly away
And never look back
The picture of yhu is shaded black"
[19:35] mizzplumz410: dam
[19:35] mizzplumz410: grimmy
[19:36] XbrownSkinMonaX: Oh. Wow. Dhatsz funny. Yhu sed offense takin. Lmao. Dhatsz a gudd1
[19:36] XbrownSkinMonaX: Lolz. Gosh srry 4 writing a poem. Damn
[19:37] mizzplumz410: yhur laughin when im not
[19:37] mizzplumz410: wiedo
[19:37] mizzplumz410: *wierdo
[19:37] mizzplumz410: baaaaad sense of humor
[19:38] mizzplumz410: but dhatsz wat i liked about yhu
[19:38] mizzplumz410: yhu always laugh at sumthin dhatsz not funny
[19:38] XbrownSkinMonaX: Weirdo? Bad sense of humor.. Harsh. But wateva.
[19:38] mizzplumz410: even at pain
[19:38] mizzplumz410: i even like the flaws about yhu
[19:39] XbrownSkinMonaX: Wow.
[19:40] mizzplumz410: im still not gettin through to yhu
[19:41] XbrownSkinMonaX: No. Stop waisting ya breathe. I'll only listen 2 yhu wen yhu tell me in person. But i dnt think even dhen mi mind wuld change
[19:41] mizzplumz410: crying
[19:42] mizzplumz410: im crying.
[19:42] XbrownSkinMonaX: Y??
[19:44] mizzplumz410: bcuz everythin i say... everything i do... doesn't make yhu believe i love yhu
[19:44] mizzplumz410: I try to everythin i can to prove to yhu i'm betta than a man
[19:44] XbrownSkinMonaX: Of course i believe yhu luv me. Yhu made it madddddd clear
[19:46] mizzplumz410: yhu say its clear but how do i know its not my dear
[19:46] mizzplumz410: now im makin this silly poem
[19:46] mizzplumz410: so i won't be left alone
[19:47] XbrownSkinMonaX: (ugh) . Idk jus cheer yhup. Wuld a kiss mak yhu betta?
[19:47] mizzplumz410: no bcuz dhat kiss would be out of pitty.
[19:47] mizzplumz410: i dont want yhur pitty
[19:48] mizzplumz410: i want yhur unconditional love....
[19:48] XbrownSkinMonaX: It wuld b out of pitty
[19:48] mizzplumz410: ?
[19:48] mizzplumz410: i just said it was
[19:49] XbrownSkinMonaX: & Im tellin yhu it wuldnt.
[19:49] mizzplumz410: wat it would be out of??
[19:52] mizzplumz410: imma text yhu now

{{ And this is what the little Emo girl went through before thinking about killing herself... }}
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The urge to draw

I have such an urge to draw. It's not even funny. I want to draw sooo many thigs. Have you noticed that alot of people are starting to post wonderful Art works on The O? I have. And that inspires me to draw. But it also brings down my confidence. The art posted are soo beautiful and I applaud everyone but I just think that I'm not such a good drawer. I know I might of said this once but I can't help it. It's killing me. I want to draw soo bad but the ideas that's in my head NEVER comes to life on a piece of paper. Sigh. Plus I'm sick so I can't draw today. T^T I feel so horrible yet i want to draw... I want to draw Yuri, Namine, Mone, and everyone else but I can't. No Fair!

Thnx for reading...
♥ Nae