Welcome to the Neon Universe, the home of random-ish things! I am NeonBubbles, but everybody just calls me neon, bubbles, NB or neobub. This world is a bit like my blog, where I can just tell the world about some of my life.
Here are some quick facts about me.
Name: Cynthia
Age: 14
Fav colour: Red
Fav food: Potatoes or pasta
Dream job: Just even getting a job would be nice.
Fears: The dark, anything that can hurt me and a certain orange fruit I am not going to name.
Can I draw? No.
Today was one of the worst days of my life. I got up 30 mins early. I went to school and took the shortcut to my classroom, but it was shut off. Then my teacher out of nowhere tells me it's closed. I do the best at putting on a fake smile and follow him to my classroom. I did nothing for a bit, bought a hot dog from the canteen not realising that I was down to my last 60 cents. Now I nearly have nothing to take to the city for buying lunch. Crap. I just want the world to leave me alone and the bad feeling in my stomach to go away. On Tuesday I go to the city. Yay!
Just something random.
Before lunch, my teacher was talking to me and honeypot877. Insted of listening I wanted to know what eye color the teacher had. I looked up and saw they were a light brown. I think. It took me half a year to figure that out. (My sis took 3 months to find out what color her teacher's eyes were.) That's how I learnt that I don't pay attention to people's eye colour.
Today it was (and still is) cold and wet and cold. Wet and cold weather can be nice unless you are stuck in the middle of it. It's stupid because while people are freezing stupid teachers get to stay in the nice cozy staffroom. Once me and my friend went to see a teacher and next to the door were empty pizza boxes. That thought then set of a really big urge for pizza. Soup would be nice as well. No, soup and roast chicken rolls! Aww....Now i'm hungry! Thanks a lot brain. It also started to rain. Luckily I got out my umbrella and it got turned inside out by the wind so I screamed you owe me a new umbrella and it turned back to normal so I looked up and said thank you! I'm lost now. Um...Oh yeah! In sport today my best friend's jerk of a brother decided to rub in the face I can't play vollyball for noodles. Then I felt like crap and sat down and started to judge myself. Thaty was probably a down point of my day.
Sigh. I feel all weird inside. I honestly don't want to go to school but at the same time I want to. I just want to curl up and sleep and let this feeling go away, but I know I will wake up the same. I just want the world to leave me alone. I hate this. I want to just tell ALL my friends but i'm woried they won't treat me the same or will blab to somebody and everybody will know. I'm still in denial about this. I don't know. I just spent the last 3 days listening to Iris by Goo Goo Dolls over and over to help me cheer up but it doesn't help. I'm not even sick of the song. Talking helps a bit but it doesn't make it go away. I just need to try to stop worring about everything and that you don't have depression forever.
~My mind and my thoughts have gone dark and empty and I just want it to go away.~
Ummm...where do I start? Well, right now I am half asleep so sorry if this makes no sence. Today, me and my family went to go look at display homes. Then, we went shopping where me and my dad chased around town for my sis and mum. I got home and checked for this thing from my teacher that was supposed to be sent me but I probably gave him the wrong email. It still hasn't come. If it don't come before Tuesday, I swear I will be grumpy.
Then I noticed my comp had a virus and ran a scan that took hours and at the same time I hopped on the chat and talked about the fact I think I have depression and other personal subjects with someone I have never met before who is on the other side of Australia.
I found that some how my comp had 1 spyware and virus on it, but it still says that it is infected. Ummm...then what happened...oh, yeah! Then I went on honeypot877's world and copied a weird story/conversation I put there last year.
Now for the good news amd bad news.
Good-I didn't fail any exams.
Bad-I still might fail drama.
Just a little note saying that a few posts ago (Title: Warning! This a rant. Now I bet you have gone to read it.) I put on some personal stuff. All of it really happened. At the time I thought it was a good idea to put something I didn't even want some of friends to know on the net but now....Anyway, don't say mean stuff to me about it because it's super personal. Maybe I should just delete it but I want people who read the neon universe to that people have feeling and breaking them can be tramatic.
