Well it's been... MONTHS since I last posted and it wasn't even a real blog! TT^TT

These last few months have been utter mayhem and stress for me. Yosei and Angelo are helping me through a tough time with a friend whom I just can't be around anymore. I've had enough and she's just too ignorant to realize when she's hurting someone. She's almost selfish- she just doesn't realize it. It's like it's built into her personality or something. Then, I found out from a reliable source that a guy who's crushing on me (Yosei was pissed about that and utterly HATES this guy) only acts nice when I'm around. As soon as I leave, he turns into a bastard. I hate liars. If someone has something to say, then SAY IT! Don't hide things from me! It's troublesome and untrustworthy! It's sad that I had to find out this way, so if you're reading this, and you know who you are, just SAY IT! If I choose someone else over you, then that's too bad! You didn't prove yourself worthy of me and you'll just need to move on! I know what it's like to have your heart broken (it's happened to me THREE times!) and I know it's something you're afraid of, but often times it just happens! Life's freakin' rough! We all go through it and you're not alone, but you need to effin' give up!

As for you, girl whom I will not name, but whom I'm trying to separate myself from, you've just CHANGED too much! Granted, I've changed too. I've grown a backbone a little bit (I'm working on growing a better one now- it's a hard process for me). What really pisses me off though is that you wanted me to grow this backbone, but when I use it against you, you get defensive and regretful. You're NOT better than any other friend I've ever had! You're the same to me as all my other friends, you were never a special exception! Okay?! You were just there for me when Lindsay left and that's it! You were a support for me and I thank you eternally for it, but things have changed! YOU'VE changed! You seem too reliant on your friends to get what you want. You're ignorant to our feelings when your own are involved and you often put yourself above everyone else. Albeit, I sacrifice myself FAR too much and I know that, but YOU don't sacrifice enough! It's high time you learned how!
On top of that, what's with this "whiney" voice you've always got? Something's not going your way and your voice changes and you sound like a little seven year old! You must not even realize it, but WE do and it annoys us to NO END! GROW UP! Stop letting your emotions control you and stop using them to control US! Do you know how guilty I feel about writing this? I need to get it off me chest, and YOU need to know! Would you just open your eyes?!
Stop pestering me! If I'm not owning up to your standards of "calling you" every other freakin' day, TOO BAD! Find a new friend to rely on! I know I'm unreliable now! I don't effin' care!
We've just changed too much since we were close friends. There's a rift that can no longer be bridged and you need to stay on your side. I need to concentrate on my life and the future ahead of me. I'm sorry to say it, but you do not belong in my future. At least, not the person you are now.
And, don't try to change yourself. NEVER change to accomodate me. I won't change for you and I don't expect you to change for me. So, quit tagging me. Leave me alone. Go, live YOUR life!
And, it wouldn't have killed you to have been more supportive of Yosei. I know he has anger problems with others. But, he's always been the perfect sweetie with me and has yet to raise his voice at me. He understands me. But, he doesn't agree with you or the other two guys you hang around (you know which two I'm referring to, if you don't- look to your left and look at your cellphone). Either way, we're not worth your time anymore and you're not worth ours. So, for the final time, just leave us be.

phew! I feel a little better now... Got that all off my chest. And if "she" reads this, I'm sure she'll be in tears by now and I'm sorry to have exploded like that. But I was at the end of my tether. I could've said more, but I'll keep it quiet. I hope this got the message across- it's been so stressful lately, ya know? Either way, that's my frustration's extent for now.
Thanks for reading and listening to this rant. You've been a wonderful Otaku.
~Niko