I'm at school. And it's not cool :(
major thinking on my part. In the library. lol.
I noticed how much of a transparent person I am. I mean I knew this in the back of my mind but I guess this mind of mine wants to see me affirm it in writing.
Maybe it's like that for everyone? I mean at home I'm usually a guy haha. I have 2 younger brothers who walks around in their boxers and fart and burp, litter, and spray Axe and bug spray and do whatnot in the same house. And the house sometimes stinks of wet fish, burnt rice and dead mice and soiled socks and hairy moles and lice-infested cat, and moldy pickles and must I go on?.
So...it makes sense that I'm a tomboy at home, calls my brothers derogatory terms of endearment that they continually use with me everrryyday. (Buttface. Fatty. Chinkkie. Jackie Chan. Oh the list goes on.)
Wear random t-shirts and shorts, take no minute to straighten out messy short hair and wear FOB glasses lolz. It also adds to the boy factor that I play video games where they beat ppl up. And its so FUN. Espeically when you can go SUPER SAIYAN or can use YOYOs to inflict damage. And when girls actually KICK BUTT.
But at school I'm so QUIET and SHY. I actually look like a decent girl. Contacts in, hair washed, wear girly clothes (if jeans are considered that), put headband on. Have no fashion sense whatsoever. wear mostly black and white. NOO ORANGE. my school color, yet I HATE IT. blah blah. I barely talk to anyone but my close buddies here and there. I don't get the inside jokes. I hate presentations because I turn into a tomato on the spot.
It's sooo weird. And I remember that when I was in JABB or JABE, our offical group of 4 weirdo teenagers who live and go to diff schools (haha)... I was soo CRAZY. I could NOT utter any sentence without the "EH MY GOSH" and overreacting for no reason. Once I even ran across the whole flippin neighborhood yelling my lungs out to chase my brothers. IDK.
I'm so uberr transparent. or changing. or whatever D:!
But it's so weird/funny/usual/strange because ppl are so cautious around meee. I think I give off that "I'm PISSED" vibe. I so do not mean to. And if I were mad, you can tell from my tone or strained laughter. haha. :)
I guess transparent would be a cool thing to be. I mean I like transparent things. Like that nifty asian transparent umbrella. and Water and RAIN. and LACE. yay
Okay this is the most writing I've done all day today.
and the most rambling too.
