Nyx was going on about someone named Marlex...It sounded so familiar...yet....I couldn't place a face with that name... Triskix made a suggestion.
"Are you sure you don't mean Marluxia?" He asked. I'd been thinking that too. Why...why would I associate that name with him?? It didn't make sense.
The name sounds familiar," I spoke out loud, "Kinda like a long lost memory or something."
It felt like someone had stolen it from me...and it made me angry. With Lexian's approach we'd all stood there in deep thought. Yet none could come up with a satisfactory answer.
Nyx brought up a strange topic. She wondered if we should regret taking lives...and if we were good or bad. I didn't know how to answer her. Personally...I felt no remorse nor pleasure from killing. It was nothing to me. I didn't have the capacity to feel such things. I simply took the action I believed to be right. Just like how I planned to "steal" my heart back. Unlike the others...I had absolutely no intention to become whole with Ari once more. She was a foolish girl who trusted in people too easily...I would never be betrayed that way again. No...if I should happen upon her, I would rip her heart from her chest and take it as my own. I wouldn't SEARCH for her...but she'd better hope fortune is on her side. The weak little girl...
"Neither," Triskix answered, "To be good one must have a heart that understands what those two are to their fullest extent by learning what emotions come with them. Without a heart to feel we don't see the difference that wholes do. We experience emotion, but the emotions are dead to us. It is a numbing feeling. We don't feel rage or happiness or sorrow. That is why we can not be considered good or bad. We don't have the power to be either."
That was a good answer. I was satisfied with that explanation. I nodded silently.
"Triskix....when did you come to that....it sounded like you would say something like that to yourself...." Lexian said.
"I came to that a while after I started traveling with a friend of mine after the original 13 died. He showed me some stuff for a little while. He gave me a bit of feeling besides the numbness. I even somewhat felt something towards his sister...if a nobody can feel anything...anyways when we went our separate ways, I went back to feeling numb." Triskix seemed to be reminiscent.
"Who was the friend?" I asked.
"His name was Kristian," He answered, "His name is Kristian." Then corrected himself.
"Triskix...Kristian is your somebody right?" Nyx asked...but seem to drift into thought...
"IS Kristian...?" I repeated. "So then...he's out there again." I spoke, mainly to myself. I wondered if Triskix considered him his friend. Also...if he feared Kristian gaining more power than himself. I wouldn't let that happen...I would keep pushing Triskix to be stronger...because eventually...I'd promised myself that I would free him from his master. I would free both Triskix and Verex...no matter what.
Nyx asked us once more about Marlex. I really didn't remember. And the more I tried...the more distant and blurred the memory became. So I stopped trying.
"It's been blocked. From all of us." I concluded. "No memory is this hard to unlock...unless someone wants us to forget."
They all looked to me.
"It'll reveal itself in due time Nyx. For now...we've things to tend to." I continued. "First off...I'm sure the Leader needs a report, Triskix. Lexian, you and I should get some rest...and Nyx, that arm....yeah....it needs to be treated. So let's go..." I started walking, then turned back and signaled them to follow.
As we walked back I added a couple of things. "By the way Triskix. Make sure you tell that arrogant jerk that my mission was a success. Or else...he'll make me pay for it later...please. Don't let him know we didn't find Nyx in the castle...and one more thing." I pulled Triskix away from the others. "I'm begging you...please keep Vincent...I mean...Verex between us if you can. Until I find out more....I really don't need him holding that over my head."
Triskix gave me a sideways glance. I hoped he could do it for me...I really didn't trust that man.
~RaXi
